Thursday, October 25, 2001

The Open House is OVER

*peeks around the corner*

Are they all gone??

*darts back into hiding at a rustle*



*slllloooooowwwwlllllllyyyy comes back out*


I think I did a bit too good of a job going out and begging for notes. Now I have all these strangers tromping through my roses and poking their noses against my windows and I don’t know ANY of them. It’s rather frightening actually.
I have decided that I NEVER want to be Editor’s Choice. Imagine having to go through this for an entire week (or more depending on how the OD Staff is feeling on Tuesday… or was it Thursday??) And then there is the danger of having someone who is NOT a random stranger (and considering I have a big ole cheesy picture of me on my front page now, it’s not like I could deny it) stumbling across here. Hm. Actually that wouldn’t be too bad, as I don’t think I know anyone in RL who might happen across here…maybe a coworker or two… but I don’t talk about them much. At least not badly, too much.


*yawwwwwnnnsss*


This is a late entry… started AFTER lunch. Oktoberfest was today… I had cabbage and soup for lunch. Really very filling. And also high in carbs which is a surefire way to make me sleepy as hell. *yawns*
Well… yeah.

Tomorrow is Friday… and then it’s the weekend. I think this weekend I will clean the house, and get some house like stuff….stuff I have been putting off buying but that I really really need Like more drawers, and *shrugs* Some other stuff. I can’t think of it all right now.

I have been thinking about more wedding stuff (as if this is new) and found some non-denominational type vows and stuff that with a little work will be rather nice. *grins* I don’t know if the ones that call on the God and the Goddess would go over too well (with my family or his) so I might have to tone that one down. And considering he suggested that his old pastor officiate *shrugs* I doubt that would go over too well with him either. Ya know… I don’t even know what denomination the church is??? * shrugs shoulders* Ah well.

Working working working.

During the severe storm warning yesterday, they herded us all into the basement as that was the storm shelter. Me and a coworker swapped palm pilot games, and she gave me this one that I am hooked on called DopeWars. *hangs head in shame* Basically you are a street dealer, and you have to see how much money you can make in 30 days. You start with 2000 bucks from a loan shark… and his interest is a BITCH! You buy and sell and try to avoid the cops. :) It’s a fun game… as long as I pretend like I am selling stock or something. :) It’s sad.

Okay. I think I’m done for the day.


Stay Jazzed.

Wednesday, October 24, 2001

Deep Thoughts...

Okay… enough Tonga type stuff. :) 


I need to take some vacation time.  *sighs* I bought a week, and plus the 12 days that we get a year, plus the week between Christmas and New Years,  plus some other random holidays… well, let’s just say I currently have more vacation left than I know what to do with. And since I might be working through the Christmas vacation period… *sighs* I need to take some time off as not to waste the time that I missed. Hm. I guess figuring out exactly how much vacation I have taken already might be a good thing to, eh?


Corey baby is all moved in, and really it’s not that much different. A lot more clothes, a few more books, and a man constantly around.  But it’s cool.


I’m being wishy washy about this freaking ring. On one hand, I really want it…but on the other hand, I would prefer him to give it to me. It doesn’t mean much if I get it for myself. Then there is the fact that he got us rings already, and even though they are in no way what I wanted… maybe I should just suck it up and stop worrying about what other people will think and work it.  And most of all I don’t want to hurt his feelings over the whole damn thing…but I don’t want to at least TRY to get some satisfaction. Hm. I don’t know. Mulling still I am.


I was reading wedding boards today, and the hot hot topic was cohabitation.  It’s amazing how that report that says the couples who cohabit are more likely to end up divorced has been twisted.   I never trust  stats when they have been pulled out of reports and used to foster anyone’s agenda (esp. the agenda’s I don’t agree with.. :)  ) It got me to thinking though.  About what? All kinds of things. But I’m not neurotic ( on a daily basis) nor am I insecure (most of the time) so I will keep those thoughts to myself.


Back to the initial topic – I have 10 vacation days left.  I would like to take the 5th, 6th, and 7th off… and then Nov. 21st,  that’s four days – which  still eaves me with six days to dispose of between now and the end of the year.  Friday’s off maybe?? That would be nice.


Ugh! I just got back from lunch and another coworker brought his lunch down and is sitting across from me eating. It smells JUST LIKE  fresh, hot, canned cat food.  *shudders* My stomach is doing all kinds of disagreeable stuff. *gag*


It’s been remarkably quiet here lately…and while that is quite scary… I guess I will have to enjoy the clam while it lasts.



 Stay Jazzed.

Monday, October 22, 2001

The Weekend - A Recap

The weekend the weekend – This weekend was full of exciting bits and pieces of fun.


Starting with the fact that  I did not have to go to the UK.. I mean really, what could be better than THAT??  *evil grin*  And of course the minor sniping I suffered *rolls eyes* fecking idiots.  But… I’m done with that.
Highlight of the weekend: I went to my first wedding!  My friend Angel finally got married to her man… it was lovely.  I realized however, that I am a fashion snob.  Corey is a food snob, I am a fashion snob, and mercy knows it will be interesting. But that aside,  it was a lovely wedding. I cried (and I really didn’t think I would, but it was just SOOOO touching) and I’m glad I went.  


However, I have realized that I am going to have to change a few things in my wedding.  *sighs*  I don’t want any mention of Jesus Christ in my vows.  I barely want any mention of God, but I can work my mind (and my mouth) around that.   Corey suggested that we get married in his home church - *shrugs shoulders* Okay…I guess.   I don’t think that I want to have a religious ceremony at all.  Just our vows to each other, and the legality.  I haven’t quite figured out how to word this to him…but I will. *laughs* I have plenty of time, eh?  I am so not Christian, and I don’t want the wedding to default to a Christian one. I am independent enough to be able to figure out a way to make it just as beautiful a ceremony without bringing Christ into it.  *sniffs*


We finished moving all of Corey’s stuff into the apartment Sunday.   *shrugs*  All I can say is that it’s going to be interesting.  He is SUCH a moody man ( and I have known this for a while) but I will have to get batter and just acknowledging his moods without having them ruin my own mood… whatever it may be.  *yawns* This is going to be a true learning experience. 


Okay… off to work now – as I would hate to neglect my job to play about in the OD. *sniffs*


Stay Jazzed.

Thursday, October 18, 2001

Back to My life...

*shakes head*


 Okay… this is gonna be a real entry. I had to go to lunch to get myself out of the Survivor world. This game can REALLLY suck up time. My god…. doing work, chatting to coworkers and trying to play survivor all at once – what FUN!!


Anyhow… on the work front I might not be going to London. Not that that would bug me too much, but… I just wish I knew for sure. Speaking of which, I had the weirdest dream last night. My flight is supposed to leave at 5:15 or something like that on Saturday….  and with all the stuff going on I need to be at the airport by 2 at the latest.  I dreamt that I didn’t wake up until 3:30 Saturday, and hadn’t even packed. *laughs* You want to talk about madness?? And then, even though he isn’t even going, I dreamt that the coworker  I was stuck in Canada with had the same problem, except his car wouldn’t start and no cabs wanted to go out that far.  Wild… I hope it isn’t some kind of mental nudge for me. 


What else?   I have already bitched about the fact that I am broke…so let’s go on to wedding/not wedding stuff.


I have decided that rather set a time limit in my head for starting to bug him again, I am going to set a weight limit. *grins* I will start mentioning wedding stuff again once I have lost 25 pounds.  That way, the pressure is back on me. Hopefully that won’t take any more than 4 or so months. *nods* Plenty of time.  Of course, that also means that if I backslide…I will have to wait even longer. *sighs*


Urgh. I can’t wait to change my Diary back to ME!!  The chickie I mocked has a design similar to mine… but it’s just NOT me.


*sighs* I’m such a brat. I WANT that damn ring.  want it want it want it want it want it.  Waiting.  10 pounds.  1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10! ah-ah-ah.


Yes… I am going to do this in the ultimate reward/punishment system. I don’t get what I want till I give my self what I need.  *nods firmly*  *breaks down * But its soooo prettyyyy!!! *eyes sparkle* 


Okay. I’m rambling AND babbling at the same time. 


I’m bored.
I’m done.


*wanders off to look at Kachii stuff*


Stay Jazzed.

Friday, October 5, 2001

Technies and Sparklies...

It’s very very odd. In an earlier entry, I fussed about not having a ring. And then, I started reading newsgroups and stuff where women were either 1) bitching about the ring or 2) telling the women who were bitching about the ring that they should be happy with what they got… and take it as a gift from the man who they plan on spending the rest of their lives with. I really wasn’t sure WHICH group I would be in, but I was afraid I would be in the ‘bitching to my self, but happy to him’ group. Well.


Yesterday, we had a team building event at GameWorks Studio downtown. The Boy shows up in the middle of it (very subtly) and says he needs to borrow one of my rings. Wha wha whaaa??? But I let him have it. I was nervous…cuz I knew he had got something, and the whole way to my house at the end of the day, all I could think about was – What if I don’t like it?? Got home, settled in, trying very hard to not ACT like I was hunting for the little box. Eventually, he gave in and handed me a box. I opened it, and inside was a thin GOLD wedding band. At first I was disappointed…just looking at it. But…*LOL* I almost felt like the Grinch when his heart grew three sizes – I took it out the box and put it on, and I promise you it looks like the most beautiful ring I have ever worn in my life. It’s a lovely, simple, golden circle…and what makes it even better is he got a matching set… so he is wearing one too. And I don’t wear gold… I don’t even LIKE gold. But it is soooo beautiful, and so appropriate. I see it as, we are starting small… and when we really take that big leap, we will have the big sparklys to go with it, rather than doing it the other way around. At first, I thought maybe I was just trying to convince myself that I liked it….but I do. It’s no self brainwashing going on here…. it’s just true.


What those women were saying IS real – IF you love him, you will love anything he gives you. :) I love him. I referred to him as my fiancĂ©e for the first time to one of my friends last night and while it felt weird… it feels so right. :)


Okay… enough of the lovely dovey stuff. Let’s talk about my new TOY!!! After doing my expense report (and finding out that I could get back the cash that I spent) I decided that I would have to treat myself to something…new… and technological. So, I bough a Palm Pilot. :) I got the software installed on the work computer, and I am good to go. I have not yet transferred all of the stuff from my date book and calendar and everything into it, but I am excited.


What else? I’m going to a football game and a fashion show tomorrow…finally getting out and having fun and meeting people. Man… having a car really has made difference. I hung out with Angel on Wednesday….having much fun on Saturday… and also, me and the Boy are going to our first real presentation as an engaged couple – a presentation thingy where we have the chance to win a new car or 25,000 bucks. :) cool eh?


Ummm.. that’s it for now…


Stay Jazzed.

Tuesday, October 2, 2001

Dragging

I haven’t had a good hair r ant in a while…maybe because I am really starting to like my hair? Hmmm..what a thought.  But I am bored, and so I want to write about my hair. :)
I  tightened up the roots and washed it on Saturday, and now it is all soft and smell good and lovely. I can’t wait till it gets long enough for me to really be able to smell it…all I can do now is just stroke it… *nice hair… pretty hair… soft hair…*


Well.  Talk about a long break. I started writing that part  yesterday, got distracted by ( gasp) work, and now am finishing.  Glad to say that me and Corey had a chit chat… and though I didn’t QUITE get the results that I wanted… I’m pretty sure that  we will be getting officially hitched within 3 years at the max,  and 2 years at the minimum.  *sighs* I guess I can work with that.  Basically, for my own sanity, now I have to act like I never  even got engaged…cuz otherwise I will be tormenting the hell out of him. :) One good thing is that I am going to go and meet his family over thanksgiving. :) Momma’s and grandmama’s tend to be reallllly good at pressuring people.. yes?   Not that I want him to be pressured or anything…. *rolls eyes* God… I am starting to feel mildly psychotic… *grins* fun. 


Okay… it is taking me two days to write a single entry… this is rally sad… but SO wonderful. I am LOVING working… I mean really working. It’s kinda cool.


Off to work again ….


Stay Jazzed.