Well… it’s been an interesting week. I have gotten up and exercised every morning, alternating ‘inside’ and ‘outside’ workouts…so I’m still proud of myself. I know that I am going to want to see some major changes in me like FAST, and just exercising alone is not going to do it. I was reading this one book the I got at the half price book store about how to get a flat stomach ASAP, and the author recommended a 1,600 to 1000 calorie a day diet, consisting of several 300 calorie mini meals a day…for a period of six weeks. Um…no. I would have to kill somebody if I tried to reduce my caloric intake that much. Besides, after those six weeks were over I would most likely balloon up like a fat pig. Sooooo…. I think I am going to tryyyyy to go back on Atkins. I know that I lose weight well and safely on that plan… so I MIGHT go back on that. But I’m not sure…*shrugs* Oddly enough, I don’t want to tell anyone that I have been working out, and that is one of the reasons that I am kind a iffy about going onto Atkins. Once you go on a diet everyone around you knows that you are trying to lose weight, and somehow for me having other people involved (Other than you LOVELY OD’ers ) makes it more of a outside thing than an inside one. It’s kinda like praying in public. You only do it if you are trying to show everyone else how wonderfully humble and in awe of your god you are. If you are really just doing it for you and your god, there is no reason to make it a subject of public discussion and involvement. The only odd thing I have noticed since I have started working out is that I have needed A LOT more sleep. I thought exercising was supposed to energize you? I do go through most of my day pretty well… but by the time 9:30 rolls around, I am OUT like a light. The fact that I am up at 6, and I tend to be moving pretty steadily until 5’ish…*thinks* that is 15 hours that I am awake… give or take an hour, which means I’m getting about 9 hours of sleep a night. Hm. I guess that isn’t too much sleep considering I am increasing the demand on my booooddddy. :) YAYYY for increased demand.
In other news, work SUCKS. These people are truly demented. *rolls eyes* Expectations from the program as a whole are way too high for a BETA system that is more buggy that the New Orleans Bayou. *sighs* And forcing people to come to work on the weekends does jack shit for morale I would like to add.
*sighs* I have figured out something about me. I am a much much much better follower than I am leader. Or maybe not. I am a much better ‘doer’ than I am ‘organizer’. I am DAMN good at actually doing and executing a task or tasks laid out in front of me. ..but organizing a group of people or a series of events? That I am realllllly not all that skilled at. *sighs* I guess it is good to know one’s strengths and weaknesses…. Perhaps I will grow out of it, or even worse be forced out of it due to promotion. Yeech.
*sighs* I love my Cheffy. He is such a sweet’art. *sighs* Sometimes I wonder if I am just overly blessed, or if this is just making up for the years of suckyness I went through before this (both on my part and on the dude’s …or dame’s part). And yet I know that if I had met him… oh a few years ago, I would never have known what was really up. He is a good person.. with his flaws and all. *rolls eyes lovingly* Men.
Umph. I don’t have much to write about…just a series of random notes on the rather bland status of my life. I have started to grow to truly dislike people asking me ‘what’s new with you?’ especially if they have just finished running down this long list of the new and wonderful things that have happened to them. *sighs* Nothing much I have to reply, almost apologetic and having to admit that I am stuck in a rut that I rather enjoy. I get up, workout, shower, get dressed, maybe grab some breakfast, kiss my sleeping Cheffy good bye, catch the bus to work, work, mess around online, go to a couple of meetings, stretch and try to breathe away the stress, catch the bus home, go home, watch a little TV, read a little, go to bed. On the weekends I go shopping. Maybe cook. It’s a rather scarily peaceful and calm life. It’s not that I don’t like it… it’s just. Dull. And not dull in a mind numbing way.. just dull as in looking from outside (even me) it doesn’t seems the least bit exciting. And really.. it isn’t. But I don’t mind. Does that mean that there is something lacking in me? *shrugs* I don’t know… maybe it just means I am a homebody… maybe it means I am a lazy bum who prefers her creature comforts at home. I don’t know. I think that for working out on the weekends I am going to take out my camera and my tripod and take at least a roll of pictures a weekend….but I will only get them exposed once a month (right after payday) That way I can exercise my legs and my art skills at the same time…and I can learn at least my neighborhood, maybe more. And considering the weather is getting nicer too… hmmm…. Yes I think I will.
Stay Jazzed
Friday, April 20, 2001
Ahhh.. push it....
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