I'm a little scared that without the lubricant of altering substances - weed, alcohol, etc, we won't get along nearly as well.
I don't know why as - I love him sober, and he loves me sober.
Somehow, I just think that it won't be quite as FUN. Are we THIS fun sober? And how scary is that in general? I want to be the cool bitch that I am high, sober.
I've acheived it - ocassionally, and usually with a group of pretty fucking special women, but I don't know if I can achieve it alone - so to speak.
Which really, is rather sad. I think.
I just had a conversation with C about the fact that I don't react - 'normally' to a lot of external social stimuli.
*sigh*
More later, as it's late, and I'm tired, and just. Bleh.
11:26
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