11/28/01

catering (including food, service, and rentals of tables/chairs/linens/serving pieces)
underwear
cake
tips
liquor
band/DJ (still waffling on which)
tent
possibly a generator (for tent lights, etc.)
photographer
rabbi
invitations (including mailing costs)
possibly programs
flowers
decorations
ketubah (this is the Jewish wedding contract, it's kind of an art piece as well)
dress (including alterations and cleaning, + maybe a headpiece?)
shoes for bride and groom (he already has the suit)
rings
license (this is cheap, right?)
rehearsal dinner and other pre-wedding activities
hotel room for us
fee for the ceremony/reception site.
Valium!
eventually, a honeymoon.

*cartwheels*

 Finally... I have a date. August 2004.  And that is okay with me.

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Success!!

and on more than one front!!

I met the family and things went sooo well. :) I'm not anyone's new best friend, but still...they like me! They really like me!!

 And the other front? I FINALLLY talked to my love about the ring, and he is sooooo cool with it. :) Happy Jazzy. Happy happy jazzy!! *nods*

 Umm... I have slacked off on the book though... mainly because I have been busy/brain dead all weekend, and because I know I can work on it during my dull times (which are so many times lately) during work.

 Ummm... what else? That's about all that is new in my life.... how about yours?

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Nervousa

 Getting nervous, getting nervous. I'm going to go and meet Corey's family tommorow after chruch, and for some reason I'm scarrrred. :(
MAybe it's cuz I jsut want to make the absolute best impression without seeming snobby? *shrugs* I don't know.

 Wish me luck.

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The Bratty Blues

if making me feel good
makes you feel bad
and the whole damn situation is making me sad
then what am I gonna do
what am I gonna do
what am I gonna do about it
baby

if something I need
makes ya feel like ya gonna bleed
and it’s a call I gotta heed
then what am I gonna do
what am I gonna do
gotta do something
baby

but it’s just a damn want
and my dreams it haunts
and it’s really
kinda scary
what should I do
what can I do
that will make it easy
baby

I can’t tell a lie
I’d hate to see a grown man cry
and the whole thing is kinda
out of line
but what am I gonna do
what am I gonna do
how can I do this
baby

rejection it ain’t
just a dream that can’t wait
in hopes we can make it together
what will you do
what can I do
what should we do
baby

comprise is the thing
the heart of this song I sing
damn this freaking ring
what am I gonna do
what can I do
what can I do that won’t hurt my
baby

Weekend Recap....

*Grins*

Well.. that is one way to get around it. I wrote about her drunk to start off with, and I wrote about her in third person (though that was by accident). So…. I was able to flow about her for a while, and then I switched over to the boy toy.  It’s odd writing this, because I honestly don’t know what is going to happen, and I get the urge to ‘read’ ahead to see what is going on…but I can’t cuz I’m writing it.  How wild is that??  I guess that is a sign that it is pretty darn interesting.

This weekend was really nice.  I didn’t do a damn thing but write and sleep and veg out in general. Actually, I take that back. I did clean up the living room and do the kitty’s box, and  reorganize my file box (as I have to do every 6 months or so).  I wanted to go driving, but as I had left my wallet with my ID in it at work (nicely covered by a bunch of papers) I didn’t really want to go gallivanting about with expired temp. plates AND no license AND no registration AND no proof of insurance. Somehow, I think that would have been temping the fates just a BIT much.  :)  

I got up to 7114 words, which means that I am right on track. I have today’s requirement to fulfill, but I don’t think that will be too hard. :) I might have found something that will eliminate most of my boredom at work.  *evil grin* And just imagine… if I write truly for a living… I will have two jobs at once. MWAHAHAHAHAHA……

I’m so so broke. It’s really sad. Oh! and the boy got fired. :(   How much does that suck?? I went all paranoid and anal (inside my head) for a little while… and as he knows me so damn well I know that he KNOWS that I went all anal and paranoid in my head…but I just had to calm down.  *shrugs* He is good at getting jobs. *raised eyebrow* Not quite as good with keeping them…but… I don’t go to work with him every day, so I don’t know. He says that it is all about hateration…but *shrugs* I’m a relative innocent as far as  employment politics go.  So… I’m sitting here printing out some resumes for him.  *deep breath* I will not freak out. I will not freak out. :) Urgh.

Anything else going on?? *thinks* Nope… that’s about it.  I am 2 pounds short of my “Can I have another ring goal??” so that’s exciting.  Have I mentioned that I have totally changed my mind about what I want? No…. hmm… I will have to post the pictures of the new one.  I still want a princess cut, but I decided that I don’t really like the setting of the one that I shown before. *shrugs* It’s too high set. So……I want this setting:  with a princess cut stone in it. :) It’s going to be a little over 1 carat, and I’m hoping that’s not too big. *sighs* I want my version of perfection….is that brattishly greedy of me?? I’m more than willing to pay for more than half of it. *sighs*  But anyhow… this setting is a lot lower. And it has the pretty crisscross thing going on. :)  *sighs*
Next week…. well actually I will wait till he gets a job to ask him. :) I’d hate to make him feel really bad.
*grins*

 

Ummm….I broke 1800 in the car!! Whoohooo!! I need to look at the users manual to see what kind of checkups and jazz that I need.  I think I might have already passed the first milestone (1200) but I’m not sure.

Um. I’m done for now.

Stay Jazzed.

The Open House is OVER

*peeks around the corner*

Are they all gone??

*darts back into hiding at a rustle*



*slllloooooowwwwlllllllyyyy comes back out*


I think I did a bit too good of a job going out and begging for notes. Now I have all these strangers tromping through my roses and poking their noses against my windows and I don’t know ANY of them. It’s rather frightening actually.
I have decided that I NEVER want to be Editor’s Choice. Imagine having to go through this for an entire week (or more depending on how the OD Staff is feeling on Tuesday… or was it Thursday??) And then there is the danger of having someone who is NOT a random stranger (and considering I have a big ole cheesy picture of me on my front page now, it’s not like I could deny it) stumbling across here. Hm. Actually that wouldn’t be too bad, as I don’t think I know anyone in RL who might happen across here…maybe a coworker or two… but I don’t talk about them much. At least not badly, too much.


*yawwwwwnnnsss*


This is a late entry… started AFTER lunch. Oktoberfest was today… I had cabbage and soup for lunch. Really very filling. And also high in carbs which is a surefire way to make me sleepy as hell. *yawns*
Well… yeah.

Tomorrow is Friday… and then it’s the weekend. I think this weekend I will clean the house, and get some house like stuff….stuff I have been putting off buying but that I really really need Like more drawers, and *shrugs* Some other stuff. I can’t think of it all right now.

I have been thinking about more wedding stuff (as if this is new) and found some non-denominational type vows and stuff that with a little work will be rather nice. *grins* I don’t know if the ones that call on the God and the Goddess would go over too well (with my family or his) so I might have to tone that one down. And considering he suggested that his old pastor officiate *shrugs* I doubt that would go over too well with him either. Ya know… I don’t even know what denomination the church is??? * shrugs shoulders* Ah well.

Working working working.

During the severe storm warning yesterday, they herded us all into the basement as that was the storm shelter. Me and a coworker swapped palm pilot games, and she gave me this one that I am hooked on called DopeWars. *hangs head in shame* Basically you are a street dealer, and you have to see how much money you can make in 30 days. You start with 2000 bucks from a loan shark… and his interest is a BITCH! You buy and sell and try to avoid the cops. :) It’s a fun game… as long as I pretend like I am selling stock or something. :) It’s sad.

Okay. I think I’m done for the day.


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Deep Thoughts...

Okay… enough Tonga type stuff. :) 

I need to take some vacation time.  *sighs* I bought a week, and plus the 12 days that we get a year, plus the week between Christmas and New Years,  plus some other random holidays… well, let’s just say I currently have more vacation left than I know what to do with. And since I might be working through the Christmas vacation period… *sighs* I need to take some time off as not to waste the time that I missed. Hm. I guess figuring out exactly how much vacation I have taken already might be a good thing to, eh?

Corey baby is all moved in, and really it’s not that much different. A lot more clothes, a few more books, and a man constantly around.  But it’s cool.

I’m being wishy washy about this freaking ring. On one hand, I really want it…but on the other hand, I would prefer him to give it to me. It doesn’t mean much if I get it for myself. Then there is the fact that he got us rings already, and even though they are in no way what I wanted… maybe I should just suck it up and stop worrying about what other people will think and work it.  And most of all I don’t want to hurt his feelings over the whole damn thing…but I don’t want to at least TRY to get some satisfaction. Hm. I don’t know. Mulling still I am.

I was reading wedding boards today, and the hot hot topic was cohabitation.  It’s amazing how that report that says the couples who cohabit are more likely to end up divorced has been twisted.   I never trust  stats when they have been pulled out of reports and used to foster anyone’s agenda (esp. the agenda’s I don’t agree with.. :)  ) It got me to thinking though.  About what? All kinds of things. But I’m not neurotic ( on a daily basis) nor am I insecure (most of the time) so I will keep those thoughts to myself.

Back to the initial topic – I have 10 vacation days left.  I would like to take the 5th, 6th, and 7th off… and then Nov. 21st,  that’s four days – which  still eaves me with six days to dispose of between now and the end of the year.  Friday’s off maybe?? That would be nice.

Ugh! I just got back from lunch and another coworker brought his lunch down and is sitting across from me eating. It smells JUST LIKE  fresh, hot, canned cat food.  *shudders* My stomach is doing all kinds of disagreeable stuff. *gag*

It’s been remarkably quiet here lately…and while that is quite scary… I guess I will have to enjoy the clam while it lasts.

 Stay Jazzed.

The Weekend - A Recap

The weekend the weekend – This weekend was full of exciting bits and pieces of fun.

Starting with the fact that  I did not have to go to the UK.. I mean really, what could be better than THAT??  *evil grin*  And of course the minor sniping I suffered *rolls eyes* fecking idiots.  But… I’m done with that.
Highlight of the weekend: I went to my first wedding!  My friend Angel finally got married to her man… it was lovely.  I realized however, that I am a fashion snob.  Corey is a food snob, I am a fashion snob, and mercy knows it will be interesting. But that aside,  it was a lovely wedding. I cried (and I really didn’t think I would, but it was just SOOOO touching) and I’m glad I went.  

However, I have realized that I am going to have to change a few things in my wedding.  *sighs*  I don’t want any mention of Jesus Christ in my vows.  I barely want any mention of God, but I can work my mind (and my mouth) around that.   Corey suggested that we get married in his home church - *shrugs shoulders* Okay…I guess.   I don’t think that I want to have a religious ceremony at all.  Just our vows to each other, and the legality.  I haven’t quite figured out how to word this to him…but I will. *laughs* I have plenty of time, eh?  I am so not Christian, and I don’t want the wedding to default to a Christian one. I am independent enough to be able to figure out a way to make it just as beautiful a ceremony without bringing Christ into it.  *sniffs*

We finished moving all of Corey’s stuff into the apartment Sunday.   *shrugs*  All I can say is that it’s going to be interesting.  He is SUCH a moody man ( and I have known this for a while) but I will have to get batter and just acknowledging his moods without having them ruin my own mood… whatever it may be.  *yawns* This is going to be a true learning experience. 

Okay… off to work now – as I would hate to neglect my job to play about in the OD. *sniffs*

Stay Jazzed.

Back to My life...

*shakes head*

 Okay… this is gonna be a real entry. I had to go to lunch to get myself out of the Survivor world. This game can REALLLY suck up time. My god…. doing work, chatting to coworkers and trying to play survivor all at once – what FUN!!

Anyhow… on the work front I might not be going to London. Not that that would bug me too much, but… I just wish I knew for sure. Speaking of which, I had the weirdest dream last night. My flight is supposed to leave at 5:15 or something like that on Saturday….  and with all the stuff going on I need to be at the airport by 2 at the latest.  I dreamt that I didn’t wake up until 3:30 Saturday, and hadn’t even packed. *laughs* You want to talk about madness?? And then, even though he isn’t even going, I dreamt that the coworker  I was stuck in Canada with had the same problem, except his car wouldn’t start and no cabs wanted to go out that far.  Wild… I hope it isn’t some kind of mental nudge for me. 

What else?   I have already bitched about the fact that I am broke…so let’s go on to wedding/not wedding stuff.

I have decided that rather set a time limit in my head for starting to bug him again, I am going to set a weight limit. *grins* I will start mentioning wedding stuff again once I have lost 25 pounds.  That way, the pressure is back on me. Hopefully that won’t take any more than 4 or so months. *nods* Plenty of time.  Of course, that also means that if I backslide…I will have to wait even longer. *sighs*

Urgh. I can’t wait to change my Diary back to ME!!  The chickie I mocked has a design similar to mine… but it’s just NOT me.

*sighs* I’m such a brat. I WANT that damn ring.  want it want it want it want it want it.  Waiting.  10 pounds.  1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10! ah-ah-ah.

Yes… I am going to do this in the ultimate reward/punishment system. I don’t get what I want till I give my self what I need.  *nods firmly*  *breaks down * But its soooo prettyyyy!!! *eyes sparkle* 

Okay. I’m rambling AND babbling at the same time. 

I’m bored.
I’m done.

*wanders off to look at Kachii stuff*

Stay Jazzed.