Today is where it all begins.....

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten


I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
-- Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten

That song has been - my song - since it first came out. I love it, love it, love it. It reminds me to be open, to be hopeful, to keep moving forward and pressing on.

The weekend? It was rather nice - C had planned on having a few fellows over to watch Wrestlemania23, but only one dude showed up. *shrugs* Saturday he worked, and I spent the day wrist deep in FIMO, and practicing sculpture. Ish is hard - I had to put in down once just to get some space so that I could work again with an open mind. I'm mostly pleased with the result (a little (tiny!) egyptian statue) but - hmm, I don't know - it just - I definitely need more practice.

I started playing Sims2 FINALLY - and wow. It's so much - better! I love the houses and the stuff, and I have a job and for the first time I don't feel like I'm being cruel to my Sim by making them work - there's actually enough time in the day to do everything. I'm just starting out (with a single girl, none the less!) but I suspect that I'll be all kinds of hooked purty damn soon.

Still haven't brought the house back up with C - largely because I really needed to process how I felt, and why the bright blue heaven I was/am so emotional about it. I'm still not sure what the root reasons are, but I'm calm enough that I think we will be able to have a nice, reasonable conversation. The main points in my mind is that it is a great deal (assuming the inspection goes well) and that the longer we wait, the higher the interest rate, and the chance that the house will be sold is wiped out. *tilts head* I know it's a huge step - buying that first house - but it's gotta be done at some point, right?

It's odd - I'm usually one of the MOST logical, rightbrained people you will ever meet. I RARELY - very, very, very rarely, let my emotions dicate an action or a plan - but when I get those REALLY strong feelings, and go with them - it works. It ALWAYS works. And this house - as I was telling my leon - I'm - I'm seriously almost obsessed with it. *tilts head* It's - odd, even to me, but it's telling me that I really shouldn't just dismiss it. I mean, sheesh - look how long it took for me to actually go and LOOK at it?

We shall see.