super super short.

blah. I wanna go home. NOW.
I don't feel like writing a bitch bitch bitccccchhhhh entry cuz I am sick of hearing myself whine. So instead, I bid ya'll adeiu...and complain that it is 45 degrees today...ain't THAT nothin?

Stay Jazzed.

Rollin Rollin Rollin....

*hums* Hmm… I’ve been in an odd mood for the past few days… singing to myself a lot.. feeling like I need to just get out and dance in circles or something. I would call it spring madness or something if it was more…concrete. I feel like wearing flowy dresses and sleeping under the stars and traveling across America in a old small car with my very best friends. Hm. Maybe I’m just sick of work.. sick of pretending to be settled and calm now and reasonable and reliable. I wanna run off into Oz and not come back until Munchkin Land has turned into Silicon Valley. I need a vacation. I wanna escape in a way that reading and dreaming isn’t letting me do any more. I wanna be SO outta here. This whole day to day corporate job stuff SUCKS. I reallllly need to start writing so that I can get the hell out of this…place. I’m considering doing something that I really really really know I shouldn’t do. I want a laptop of my own, and as I actually DO have a credit card (yeah it’s in my mom’s name but I pay for it….) I can get a laptop. I have been rummaging this idea around in my mind for a quite a while, but I think I will save it as a reward for when (if) I pass this danngone class. *sighs* I am such a lazy bum…even when I know that it is in my own best interest to NOT be. *sighs* This is the same thing I went through with one of my classes while I was still in school.

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Okay one of my co-workers just broke down crying. I hope that nothing is wrong with her yet to be born grand-baby… *sighs* I know that this project is stressful but damn… I hope it isn’t that bad.
Okay… family issues. *sighs* Mercy.

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Back to whining about me. *sighs* I really don’t want to take this damn class. That is the problem…really once you get down to it. Arrgh. *hangs head* If I still could I would withdraw…but I KNOW that ain’t an option any more. Hm. Actually I can. I have up until two weeks before the last class. Interesting. *sighs* I’m not. I’m NOT. Dammit. Okay… I am gonna be just fine. I just submitted part of my project over a month late and he gave me a C. *shakes head and sighs* I realllllly have no excuse!

As a preparation for the exercise that I am going to start doing next week right after I gt my sneakers, I have started stretching every night. I used to be a scarily flexible person, but due to age, lack of use, and excess flesh being in the way, most of the lovely poses that I used to amaze my friends and intrique my lovers have gone the way on the Dodo. So I figured warming up those muscles, reminding them what physical activity feels like, is a good prelude to be working out. It is also helping me just FEEL better, as I have been suffering from aches and pains and the like for just waayyy too freaking long. What I thought was a sign of my eminent death may just be my body’s way of saying “HEY!!! I can’t haul around BUT so much now….”

Work has been fun. I am learning a lot more, and I feel a lot more comfortable transitioning into this role. Not leadership ( I don’t know shit about what I don’t know… and I certainly know that I don’t know enough to be in a leader ship role) but rather a more supporting role. Yes I know I bitched about the job earlier, and if I could get out of it I would… however I kinda enjoy what I am doing now. So I have to go and do it…

Stay Jazzed.

Hellloooo Spring... *VVOOSSSHHH!!!!!!!!*

*smiles* I have been going around all day asking people what the HELL happened to spring. While I have absolutely nothing against a nice spate of warm weather, jumping from 40 to 84 in the matter of a week is not realllllly what I was expecting. *sighs* This is in NO way to be taken as a rant or even vaguely complaining, I’m just commenting, that’s all. My main problem is that I have no no no work suitable summer clothes. The last time I actually bought summer clothes had to be almost three years ago, and it is WELL worn out. I would be shamed to wear most of the stuff to the laundry room, much less to work. I don’t have any shoes either…so that kinda limits my already limited wardrobe even more. I was expecting a bit more transition time before I really had to pull out the ‘warm’ stuff. *sighs* I think I have enough stuff to get me trough this week (by the hair on my chinny chin chin) but I am for sure going clothes shopping this weekend. I get paid on Friday (which helps loads) and I will be hitting all of the lovely bargain basement places that I know of so that I can try to accumulate a rather cheap collection of suitable summer clothing. I am going to pay the minimum on all of my bills this month so that I can get everything that is on
“Jazzy’s I really really NEED this stuff list”
two pairs of sneakers (one to work out with and a cheaper pair to wear just kicking around)
a small but flexible summer wardrobe
some plants for my balcony and my house in general
driving lessons
and really… that is about it. I expect the sneakers to be the ‘biggest purchase’ for the least amount of stuff, as one pair can easily cost up to 100 bucks. *sighs* So far, I have a stack of bills in the house that I know need to be paid…hmm… the only ones that may be variable is one of the credit cards and my phone bill. Hmm… but that still leaves me with… *raised eyebrows* hmm… a rather healthy chunk of change to play with. And depending on how much of this raise I actually SEE…. Hmm… yes.. Jazzy might be able to have a bit of fun.
I have decided that when my lease is up, I am not going to resign another year long lease, I am just going to sign a six month one instead. As I plan on getting a car in September, I will be able to drive around and try to find another cheaper place to live…because I am pouring waaayyy too much money into this apartment. Though mercy KNOWS I do love it… *sighs* I don’t know… if I do move it is going to have to be to a verrah verrah nice place. And as I know I am NOT buying a house in this city. *sighs* I don’t know. I have to try to figure out how much this place is really worth. I feel utterly ridiculous for paying this much for an apartment (I’m paying more than most of my co-workers MORTAGES)..but at the same time really I can’t beat it. *sighs* I don’t know… paying for parking might be what kills me in the end. Ugh. I’m just not going to think about it right now.. leap over THAT particular bride/river when I get to it.
*grins* Who knows, by that time I might be living with Cheffy…by that time I might not even be HERE anymore. Not gonna stress it out. In fact… as soon as I can escape from this place of semi-misery that some call work I am going to the grocery to get the fixing for the pepper bread that I am making for the ‘Carry In’ here on Wednesday…and then I think I will clean my bedroom. *nods* Maybe I will get some incense from one of the little shops over by the grocery store so that I can make my house smell all lovely and stuff.

Stay Jazzed.

Forgive Me, for I have slacked...

*sighs* I am SO bad. I feel vaguely guilty, and yet not guilty at all. I have been SO slacking on this class that I need to graduate. Now I understand the dangers of starting working BEFORE you have fully completed your degree. For slackers like me, that is an open invitation to just not do SHIT. I have missed one assignment so far, and the next one is due tomorrow (which naturally i haven’t TOUCHED yet), which means I have two long ass assignments to do, that I haven’t even started on *sighs* I don’t know why… I actually tend to forget about the damn class. Clearly net learning is NOT good for me. *sighs* So.. I’m taking to laptop home with me tonight, along with the disk drive so that I can save frequently… and I am going to get to work. There will be no traipsing off to Pier One tonight for me. And no cleaning either. At least not until this amazing feat of bullshit/creative writing/ learning curve is complete. Just me, the computer, the 80 something dollar text book that I have yet to open, and maybe some music. Working away. :)
I feel so much better having confessed. I’m almost looking forward to doing this. I’m usually pretty good at designing systems. And after the past 5 months, I’m DAMN good at testing them. And as this computer is a HELL of a lot faster than mine…it won’t be as nerve wracking to work on it. And as it’s a lap top, it’s also VERY mobile. *nods* *pumps herself up* Yeah Yeah YEAAAHHHHH!!!!!

Stay(ing) Jazzed.

What DAY is it?????!!!???

*sings*
Never on Sunday
Monday’s too soon
Tuesday and Wednesday just won’t do…
Thursday and Friday weekend begins
But our Saturday LOVE….. will never end… sugah!

Guess what? It’s Friday. And guess what else? It’s warm…I’m talking close to 70 ° !! That is just SOOO Jazzy. This weekend I might be guilted into cleaning my apartment, as yesterday as soon as I got home I opened every window in my house, and I left them open all night without feeling the least bit chill. *sighs* I really was kinda trying to put it off…I mean WHO likes to clean right?? But today…if I am not TOO incapacitated by the cramps that seize my entire lower half and make me spasm like a fish freshly out of water…I think I might swing by the Pier One outlet again and see what they have new. As I am not really spending ‘my’ money (I’m still working off of the gift card to Pier One that my mommy gave me for Valentine’s) I don’t have to feel the least bit bad about going and splurging for more new stuff for my house.
I had to call my mommy and whine yesterday about the fact that they (they being Subaru) have changed the design of MY car… and they (horror of horrors) have taken out the freaking SUNROOF!! ARRGGGHH!!! That was one of the main reasons I wanted to get the stupid car (besides the lovely all wheel drive of course). *sighs* But the new body of the 2002 Impreza is just so freaking CUTE! I don’t know… I have been so fixated on sunroofs…now I have to start all over again and figure out what kind of car I want. I would just get a 01… but….from a quick search I did on the web, I don’t think they are going to be that easy to find. I mean when I was looking for them last year they were hard as hell to find. *sighs* Maybe I should just look into getting a sunroof installed in the car. Hm. It’s a thought. Hm. Looks like installing one aftermarket costs about the same as getting one factory installed. *sighs* *pouts* *whines vaguely*
Ahh welll… I’ll get over it. Maybe.
As I woman, I would like to say that if that whole Eve & the apple Genesis thing is even vaguely on point…contrary to any and all previous ideas, God has GOT to be a man. Otherwise, God wouldn’t have given us stuff like cramps and childbirth and all that other painful stuff than men can just look on and pat our hands and back and the like in pseudo-sympathy. *growls* I least I don’t PMS. *growls* I would prfer it.
*laughs* I just passed one of my co-workers in the hallway and she wished me a Happy Friday. It reminded me of that priceline commercial where the lady came up with the idea of St. Croix day… and managed to turn it into a sort of holiday for everybody.. while she was off on a plane to St. Croix. *sighs* Flying off somewhere on a semi spur of the moment sounds like a great idea to me. Yup yup yup….I’m browsing for cars again… *pouts* six more months.. that is what I keep telling myself… only six more months…
*softly chants*
There’s no place like home…I mean…Just six more months… just six more months…


Stay Jazzed.

I gotta go buy a tiara...

*does a little boogy-woogy shake my tushie dance*
I would first like to thank all of my wonderful wonderful readers for your support. Without you, I would never have reached this point.
I would also like to thank my fingers, for dutifully typing out each entry, and my eyes for being able to see the wonderful results.
And most importantly, I would like to thank my BRAIN…who has dedicated so much of her time to putting together words in arrangements that somehow usually manage to resemble sentences…

I HIT 1000 NOTES YA’LL

You guys like me… *sniff sniff* you guys realllllllly like me….

I’m Jazzed and ya’ll better STAY jazzed.

For Peter and his Shadow

*grins* Some jokes for my favorite pilot:

A DC-10 had an exceedingly long roll out after landing when his approach speed was just a little too fast. San Jose Tower: "American 751 heavy, turn right at the end, if able. If not able, take the Guadeloupe exit off of Highway 101 and make a right at the light to return to the airport.

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O'Hare Approach Control: "United 329 Heavy, your traffic is a Fokker, one o'clock, 3 miles, eastbound
United 329: "Approach, I've always wanted to say this... I've got that Fokker in sight!"

*grins* Hope ya'll enjoy....

All's Well....

Thank you everybody for the good wishes at the doctors…it went WONDERFUL. According to the doctor, there are 4 levels of severity for ‘abnormal cells’ with the lowest being 1 and the highest being 4. He said that my little patch of oddities was a ½. :) Not even a one. Ain’t that just lovely??? And we went over the whole birth control thing real quick… but as I was on the damn things for five years beforehand, there was very little that we touched on. :) I have to go back in about two months to get some pills and get a check-up PAP. Hopefully then everything will be clear and happy little cells. If that ‘odd’ patch is still there, he is gonna *shiver* FREEZE my cervix and hope that normal ones grow back. Is that or is that not the freakiest thing you have ever heard?? *shudders* I hope they go away on their own. I get old easy enough… I really don’t want any cold stuff in MY stuff….

Work has been pretty good today…keeping me busy and on the run. Transitioning to this new role shouldn’t leave me much time TO be bored. Like a said, the woman I’m learning from is really high strung, but god knows that makes for an interesting time. :) It’s kinda funny me dashing after her, as I am a notoriously slow walker and she…isn’t. :) But it’s actually kinda cool as I am LEARNING…praise the heavens.
I miss my Cheffy. *laughs* He actually went HOME last night, and thus I completely missed out on him. Though I thought I heard him come in last night… *sighs* but it was just dreamy me. I got plenty of sleep for once, as I went to sleep around 8:30pm. *sighs* It was wonderful…I actually woke up with my alarm clock at 6, and STILL went back to sleep… even though I didn’t really need to. I got out of bed at my usual hour of 7am…but I haven’t been sleepy ONCE today, even though I ate a sandwich and chips and soda for lunch. It’s kinda sad how much of a difference a little sleep makes.

Well… it’s taken me all day to write this one really short entry, and I would write more but I refuse to miss my bus and end up stuck here until 6. That just ain’t happening today.

Stay Jazzed….

:( ):

Cheerful Cheerful. That’s kinda me today. I haven’t been sleepy much (which is a blessing) and I am kinda…upbeat. It’s rather lovely. I’m sure it is a side effect of the fact that I know that I have a short day today, as I am out of here at 2:00 pm so that I can go to the doctors. *sighs* Finally, I get to ask them what is wrong with me… if anything. I never got any information back about the biopsy…so I am still assuming nothing is wrong. *shrugs* Cheffy keeps asking me when I am going back to the doctors…I wonder if he has an ulterior motive though. :)
*sighs* Blagh…I’m bored today though. The little bit that I had to do I got done in about 20 minutes, and as far as the ‘training’ for the new duties that I am supposed to be taking on is going… *sighs* That is just going slow. The woman who is supposed to be training me (the same one I think is pregnant) is so…high strung that it’s kinda amusing. And then she has a very…curt tone the more high strung she feels, and so she tends to be really snippy at people, even though I’m sure that she doesn’t mean to be. *shrugs* I chalk it up to her not being American… :)
Not many people wrote in the OD today…though quite a few of the people who did were folx that I hadn’t read in a while… so that was nice. But… I wanna read more.
Blagh.
Don’t really WANT to write. Just trying to do something to waste time.

Consider it wasted.
I wish I was wasted. *giggles* or at least sleep.

Stay Jazzed.

I've had better...thanks..

*yawns hugely* I’ve had a wonderful weekend. As it decided to be cold as hell rather than the lovely 60 ° I expected it to be…(ohhhh thank you Wendy!!!) I stayed in all weekend except when I ran out to get fixings for bread. It was rather nice. I’m itching to do some serious spring cleaning… but it just doesn’t FEEL like spring cleaning unless all the windows are open and a nice warm SPRINGY breeze is blowing through the house. As nothing of the sort has occurred yet in this accursed town…well let’s just say that my pad is not in the lovely state that it could be. Weekends are usually the best when they just all kind of blur together into one smooth symbol of calmness…just lovely.
I didn’t get as much rest as I had hoped…or I ate too much bread. :) It’s just SOOO yummy. I made two loaves of cinnamon swirl bread…and the swirl and all came out RIGHT this time (addition of eggs and a double rising and a tighter roll) as well as three mini loaves of pepper cheese bread… *sighs with delight* Cheffy is consuming the cinnamon bread (as I made it for him that is only logical…I’m not too crazy about it) while I am eating the cheesy stuff. It really pokes all of my food buttons. Bread is already yuuuummmmmmy as all get out…but to have it baked with yummy FRESH peppery cheese in it. *rolls eyes* oh heaven…toasted… with just the TINIEST hint of butter swooped across it… *sighs* and I wonder why I’m not losing any weight. My mouth is watering just THINKING about it…. And then it is LITTLE bread too… with makes it even more snacky and finger foody. Yum yum yum.
Anyhow…as I was saying I didn’t get as much rest as I had hoped because I am just so so sleepy. *wriggles* But by the time I get home I’m not quite as sleep y anymore and I think of all the things I could do while I am at home and I don’t go to bed till 10:30 11:00 and I wake up sleepy the next morning. *sighs* And the main reason I stay up so late is so that I can see Cheffy for a little while when he comes in from work. *shrugs* It’s just nice to do…
I reaaallllly want to just go home and go to sleep tonight after a light dinner of toast and tea… :) but I doubt that I will… *sighs* I’ll try though. :) My new furniture is just so danggone comfy that I tend to get all settled in out there and not wanna go into my not quite so nice bedroom and go to bed. *sighs* I guess the bedroom is going to be my next fixer-upper. I actually managed to get my hair tightened up over the weekend. Yes… it took me alllll weekend…most of Friday night, all of Saturday…and while I wasn’t doing it continuously…still it took longer than I had expected. The results are very much so worth it… at least to me. I doubt that anyone else can even really tell that I did anything to it, although you can see a bit more of my natural color now. I however, can most certainly feel and tell the difference. Why tightening up my roots makes the whole loc feel smoother and tighter I have no clue, but I like the end result. Then again, maybe it was the conditioner that is really doing all the hard work. Whatever the reason I am thrilled with it. It’s just starting to feel more ‘locked’. *does a happy twirly dance*

Ugh. It’s only 2:15…*sighs* Well.. at least we didn’t change the time here today… I’m back on Central time again. If it was 1:15 and I was feeling the way I do right now I think I would have to seriously harm someone. Really.
I haven’t done a survey in simply AGES… hmmm… mainly because none of my favourties have done any. *sniffs* Maybe I will wander the jungle of randomhood and see if I can find something that way…


Stay Jazzed.