Tsk,tsk and other shtuff.

Well......it was a lovely weekend. Let's review:

On Thursday, cheery, optimistic, and fulla life, I suggested that the following things would be accomplished. As of Tuesday, let's see where we are...
1) Vacuuming the house. I'm shamed to say, it hasn't been done since we've moved in, and only the fact that a) we dont' wear shoes on the carpet and b) the cats don't go upstairs has made it able to last this long without giving me the shuddering hickyickys.  Did that! Just barely...but the carpets look mahhhhvelous.
2) Cleaning the house - putting away all the files, straightening up, cleaning the TV and the tabletops, mopping the floors, dusting, organize the knick-knacks, etc., etc. so that I can - did this! House looked lovely! Until we started living in it again, of course.
3) Take pictures of the house for my best friend - I wanted to wait til we got the furniture, but he's an impatient heifer, he is. Hah - took the pictures, but haven't emailed/uploaded them yet.
4) Play lovingly with my iPod. oohhh yes - much loving play. Found the rockingest cheap music site too.  Rockingest, I tell you, ROCKINGEST.
5) Brush the cats. FatBastid needs a brushin BADLY. - Brushed him, twice. Still needs brushing, the damn walking sweater.
6) Sleep. Lots and lots o sleep. - ooohhh yes. Got that. Got LOTS of it.
7) The PS2 and my skin have both arriaved in Memphis this morning - YAY!!! If they don't get delivered today, I should be able to get them tomorrow. Got the PS2 Thursday, the skin Friday - more on both later.
8) Getting girly and doing my toes and my fingers and deep conditioning the hair. (Ah yes, I'm loving the color more and more. I haven't gotten it wet again yet, as I know thats going to change the color more and I wanted to give it time to 'set' so to speak.  Can I mention that it SUCKS that my roots are starting to show already? My hair grows too damn fast *glares at it*) Did the hair, didn't do the toes or the nails. I might pay somebody at this point.
9) Finishing my website! Hah - didn't even TOUCH it.
10) - nah, no ten. I think planning on doing 9 things over the next four days of vacation is quite enough. And really, it's more like 2.5 since C will be at home Sunday and Monday.

So - I actually got more done than I thought I would, as well as some extra stuff like cooking, cleaning the cat box, and sleeping. Even more.

Electronica update: The PS2 is - funky. I'm not sure if it's just a side effect of age, but they don't like reading the game info. I'm going to 'exchange' it - hopefully, we'll get a better one.  The skin - not as heavy duty as I thought it would be, but still VERY cute. I've found a webiste too - I'm at wokr, and I'm sure the netNanny will block me looking it up - but I think it's music.mp3.ru (jah, that's Russia). All kinds of music, for a penny a meg. A penny. I feel unguilty because I'm paying for it, but I feel uber guilty because I KNOW it's a steal, so to speak. Spent 30 bucks, got around 400 songs.  *blushes* And yes, I'm going for more!

Umm.....must go and pay the bills now. :)

Biorhythmic Issues

I'm  dangerous when I'm obsessed with easy stuff - it fulfills both my lazy side and my perfectionist side.

Let's see - work today was aiight, but I was itching to get home to my new baby - my iPod. Oh yeah, this is going to be another ipodderific entry - but it should be short. Let's just say that I'm sitting here listening to my whole CD collection. As I told one of mah boys - this sucker ROCKS. The sound is glorious - though I have to admit I am considering getting another set of headphones, as you have to get these settled in your ears just right for the sound to be even.

I've gotten most of my songs, even the ones on the CD's that were almost too scratched to be usuable. I tried to upload them off of the CD twice more, then I brought them from iTunes. I actually got all but 15 off of the CD's - which really isn't bad - and most of the ones I had to buy were from an album that for some reason always gets rough treatment at my hands - but I LOVE the music - I've actually PURCHASED three (1, 2, 3) copies of hte same CD. I heart Mes'chell.

Suddenly I understand people who leave their TV's on mute all of the time - if you have your own persol soundtrack - why bother with their sound?

it's 5:20(am, girls & boys) and I've been up since 7am. I'm debating running a 24hr - I haven't done that in ages, but - I don't think I have anything interesting enough to keep me awake for another two hours.

I'll have more (like the runaway cattale) to tell tomorrow. I think I'll join the hubby in the wonderbed now.

Good Morning, ya'll.
(see, you know there is something wrong when as you turn off the tv to go to bed, you realize that you've been watching MTV's Video Wakeup for the last 1/2 hour).

Living for the Weeekkkend!!

It's THURSDAY!!!! Finalfreakingly, I might add.  I'm taking Friday off, and we get Monday off - 4 day weekend, here I cooommmmeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm DONE!! Holy Cow, I've finished loading all of my CD's into iTunes, and I've ended up with 154 albums, and around 1900 songs - 5 full days and a bit of wonderful music. I've also got the album art for all of them - when I get home tonight, I'm FINALLY going to load up the iPod. I backed up our files last night, and I think the music file is a mere 7GB, so I should use a little over 10% of it's capacity.  I honestly think that I'll use the photo capability more for displaying album art - I wonder if there is one of those swirly things like Windows Media has that you can play while the songs are running? That would be cool. I brought ONE album from iTunes - the Boomerang Soundtrack....and I have a couple of CD's where they were scratched and so iTunes couldn't pick up the song - I'll replace those first. And actually, I want to go through the really SHORT ones (times of 1 second and stuff) and make sure that there's really something there beforeI upload - I want to have the full albums before I start getting anymore. And of course - I need to work on my playlists..... *grins* Obsession can occur VERY quickly.

So - what's the plan for this weekend?
1) Vacuuming the house. I'm shamed to say, it hasn't been done since we've moved in, and only the fact that a) we dont' wear shoes on the carpet and b) the cats don't go upstairs has made it able to last this long without giving me the shuddering hickyickys.
2) Cleaning the house - putting away all the files, straightening up, cleaning the TV and the tabletops, mopping the floors, dusting, organize the knick-knacks, etc., etc. so that I can
3) Take pictures of the house for my best friend - I wanted to wait til we got the furniture, but he's an impatient heifer, he is.
4) Play lovingly with my iPod.
5) Brush the cats. FatBastid needs a brushin BADLY.
6) Sleep. Lots and lots o sleep.
7) The PS2 and my skin have both arriaved in Memphis this morning - YAY!!! If they don't get delivered today, I should be able to get them tomorrow.
8) Getting girly and doing my toes and my fingers and deep conditioning the hair. (Ah yes, I'm loving the color more and more. I haven't gotten it wet again yet, as I know thats going to change the color more and I wanted to give it time to 'set' so to speak.  Can I mention that it SUCKS that my roots are starting to show already? My hair grows too damn fast *glares at it*)
9) Finishing my website!
10) - nah, no ten. I think planning on doing 9 things over the next four days of vacation is quite enough. And really, it's more like 2.5 since C will be at home Sunday and Monday.

Survey 39'er....

The Random Survey of a Bored Mind (also know as Survey 39'er) (if you steal it, you gotta add one question or one favorite  or one this or that , and let me know) (ahhhh....power)

Silly Questions
1) What's the silliest thing you've ever done to your personal appearance? Hmm....goes cutting off an entire braid SMACK at the crown of my head count? I was only 2, but still.....
2) How often do you wear underwear inside out? Ohhh...way too often. That first trip to the bathroom at work is always a tossup.
3) What's your oddest 'ick' thing? Back Pimples. They're icky in an "oooohhh - I.MUST.ERADICATE" kinda way.
4) If you found a 11 x 13 manilla envelope full of fresh 100's - how would you hide the money from the IRS? Spend small amounts for long periods of time. No new fur coats.
5) What's the stupidest thing youv'e spent money on (and how much)? Cat beds, and only 30 bucks. The brats.
6) If you had to stay one age for the rest of your life - what would it be, and why? Hmm....I might be too young to answer this, but I think I'd dig 32. Old enough to be close fully grown (one would mostly hope) young enough to still feel young.
7) Do you make up silly songs? (Singing them to your kids doesn't count!) Ooohh - all the time - side effect of talking to myself and getting songs stuck in your head.
8) What cliche drives you batty? OHHHH!!! "Shoot for the moon, if you miss, at least you'll be amoung the stars" Umm.. no - no you won't!!! The closest star to us is MUCH further than the moon (thanks Sol, stay that way, won'tcha?) so if you miss the moon, you're unhappy ass is going to be floating out there with the direct TV satillites.
9) What's one unique thing about your childhood? There wasn't a TV in my house until I graduated from High School.
10) What's your vision of a perfect body? Ohhh....same size boobs, just pointing more northerly. Lindsay Lohans OLD belly (not the starvingly stylish one she's got now) - my booty, just smaller (I got a cute ass), ARCHES in my freaking feet, 30% body fat (I like being curvilicious), Angelina Jolie's thighs - actually, scratch all that - just gimme HER body, thank you VERRY much.
11) If you woke up one day, and had your vision of a perfect body, what's the first thing you would do? If I already had the above mentioned manilla envelope, go mad crazy clothes/shoes/UNDERWEAR shopping. I mean MAD crazy.
12) If you had to have one song playing in the back of your head FOREVER - what would it be? Oh good lord. Umm... the instrumental version of 'Everything Must Change' by Oleta Adams.
13) What's your nervous tic/twitch? The skin under my eye starts jumping.

Favorite:
1)Sesame Street Character: Oscar. I was terrified of his evil ass when I was under 4 - my mother & aunt got much amusement in stalking me with the jack-in-the-box version of Oscar when I was a child - and I actually REMEMBER this.   Evil women. But as I got older, I admired his fuckyou attitude.
2)Aerobic Activity: Ummm......dancing!
3)Toe: Big toe. Not the one with the ugly bruise on the right, the pretty one with the nail that grows right on the left.
4)Foreign country: Egpyt! Though I've never been.
5)Painful beauty procedure: Ouch. Shaving me legs. I have yet to learn how to NOT nick the backs of my ankles.
6)Unnatural Hair Color: Bright BLUE. Like a smurf.
7)Cartoon: Loonry Tunes babe - I was sooooo geeked when I saw the Elmer/Bugs Bunny Vallahara last week.
8)Kind of paper: Ohhh - the slightly bumpy nubbly kind - NO LINES.
9)Fingernail Polish: Russian to a Party by O.P.I in the winter, and Cotton Canday by O.P.I in the summer. But I usually wear clear.
10) Piece of office equipment: Whiteboards! Oh, how I love whiteboards. I wonder how much it would cost to get your walls covered in whiteboards at home? Hmmm - now THAT's a good covering for a kids room!
11)Smell (and no, your sig other doesn't count!): Smartfood white cheddar cheese popcorn. *licks lips*
12)Trash TV show: JERRY! JERRY! JERRY!
13)Coin: The big gold Sacagawea dollars. I always feel so rich when I have a pocket full of them.

This or That:
1) Tequila or Rum: Rum!
2) Burps or Farts: Farts. Such coming outta your ass is SUPPOSED to smell bad.
3) Skinning your knee or skinning your elbow: Ouch. Ouch. Umm...damn. Knee, I guess.
4)Pimple in the middle or forehead, or pimple right below your nose: Forehead!
5)Sleep or Money: Sleep. If I could earn money in my sleep I would.
6)Mac or PC: PC. And yes, it's just because I'm USED to it.
7)Jolly Ranchers or Starbursts: Yick. Yick. JR's if I have to choose - they are both funny flavored and waaayyy too damn sweet.
8)Chest cold or head cold: Chest. At least the hacking serves some purpose - and you get sympathy/fear from coworkers and get to stay home. With head colds, the misery is all yours.
9)Straw or cup: Straw!! The only thing I LIKE to drink outta cups is liqour.
10) Perfection or procrastination: procrastination - I mean,hello! I just created a survey!
11)Rocking to the bass or chillin to the classics: Rock on DUDE!!!
12)Abnormally long fingers or abnormally wide fingers: Long. Long fingers are cool, and they are useful for getting the last pickle out the jar.
13)painful satisfation or easy settling: oohh - gimme the pain. I'm too damn stubborn to settle.

See??? it's FUN!!!!

The Creation of Survey 39'er

I'd like to do a survey - I need to go and dig one up.

Umm...back from lunch, sent off the letter to TMA (and the 25 ducats) and grabbed a diet Dr. Pepper (I hate regualr soda - it's WAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY too sweet). Dangit - there was something I was going to expound on (A'ishah's Weekly Soapbox) but now it's just gone - pppphhhffft!

Ooohhh... Maybe I'll make up a survey!! That'll be even more fun. Okay - Survey here - my answers in the next entry.

 

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The Random Survey of a Bored Mind (also know as Survey 39'er) (if you steal it, you gotta add one question or one favorite  or one this or that , and let me know) (ahhhh....power)

Silly Questions
1) What's the silliest thing you've ever done to your personal appearance?
2) How often do you wear underwear inside out?
3) What's your oddest 'ick' thing?
4) If you found a 11 x 13 manilla envelope full of fresh 100's - how would you hide the money from the IRS?
5) What's the stupidest thing youv'e spent money on (and how much)?
6) If you had to stay one age for the rest of your life - what would it be, and why?
7) Do you make up silly songs? (Singing them to your kids doesn't count!)
8) What cliche drives you batty?
9) What's one unique thing about your childhood?
10) What's your vision of a perfect body?
11) If you woke up one day, and had your vision of a perfect body, what's the first thing you would do?
12) If you had to have one song playing in the back of your head FOREVER - what would it be?
13) What's your nervous tic/twitch?

Favorite:
1)Sesame Street Character:
2)Aerobic Activity:
3)Toe:
4)Foreign country:
5)Painful beauty procedure:
6)Unnatural Hair Color:
7)Cartoon:
8)Kind of paper:
9)Fingernail Polish:
10) Piece of office equipment:
11)Smell (and no, your sig other doesn't count!)
12)Trash TV show:
13)Coin:

This or That:
1) Tequila or Rum:
2) Burps or Farts:
3) Skinning your knee or skinning your elbow:
4)Pimple in the middle or forehead, or pimple right below your nose:
5)Sleep or Money:
6)Mac or PC:
7)Jolly Ranchers or Starbursts:
8)Chest cold or head cold:
9)Straw or cup:
10) Perfection or procrastination:
11)Rocking to the bass or chillin to the classics:
12)Abnormally long fingers or abnormally wide fingers:
13)painful satisfation or easy settling:

 

Okay.  I'm done now. it's a survey 39'er! Yaaayyyy!!! Okay - now I'm all hype to go and answer my own questions. Is this like talking to yourself (which I do A LOT. I mean - a WHOLE lot. Thank god I don't LOOK touched, otherwise people would really worry about me).

ahh.......how to entertain a bored person for two hours: click next entry.

Hehehe.

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Oddly enough...

despite the fact that I only got 4 or so hours of sleep last night (obsession is bad, mmkay?) I feel rather peppy and alive.  I'm in the T's now on my CD's (thus the only four hours of sleep) AND I've got album art for most of them. The hard drive's been connected, and tonight I should be able to FINALLY upload all of my music to the iPod, then comes the fun part - buying NEW stuff.

I went 'surfing' on amazon yesterday - it was actually really fun, jumping from album to album based on what things Amazon recommended and what albums other folx suggested. I think I've found several GOOOD drum/bass triphop Cd's - and of course some salsa to shake me ass too.....everywhere I go, I've been jotting down notes of music. I LOVE music - love it, love it, love it - but I was never able to afford (time or money wise) to put as much effort into becoming musically broad as I wanted too - now? Hah! I shall find the legal free indie music (as an aspiring artist, it'll be bad karmic juju to swipe) and fall in love with new bands with odds names and intense songs.

Can I tell you? The album art uploading program I have freakkking ROCKS. It basically searchs amazon.com, copies the cover art of the album you've selected, and embeds it into the music file. How much does that rock? I mean - SERIOUSLY.  And there is some really nice album art out there. For the albums that Amazon doesn't sell, I'll either find the album art somewhere else and upload it, or I'll just make/find my own image to go with it. I can't remember the name - but it's freeware, and besides getting hung up occasionally, works like a dream. It's FREEware though, so I ain't complaining.

One more full day of work!!!! I'm taking Friday off, and we have Monday off, so I'll have two luscious days of being home alone - I think I might even let C take the car to work - I ain't going nowhere - and if I really wanted to go someplace to pick up something, I can always walk (with my new iPod!) to get it. Relax, clean the house, lay out in the sun, play Sims, maybe grill a little - ahhhhh.....and then I'll also have two luscious days with the hubby.... I wonder if he has to work this Sunday? I know he had to work last sunday....hopefully he's off.

Ah yes! He got the xBox last night. There was a scare for a second as we thought that the dude had forgotten to include the wireless transmitter that plugs into the xBox itself, but after digging through the roughly 8 gallons of peanuts he put in the box, we dug it up. Everything was in GREAT condition - it seriously did look brand new.  He's gotten into Halo2 a little bit, but being an RPG'er, I suspect that the Elder Scrolls of Morrowind is going to be more up his alley. So far, we are at a *thinks* 4 out of five for electronics off of ebay - the battery, the laptop screen, the xBox, and the iPod. Now, if this dude with the PS2 would just get OFFA his ass and mail it, it'll be a home run.

*yawwwwnnn* hmm, maybe I spoke too soon. I'm certainly NOT getting lunch today - I'd be dead at my desk. I was stuck in here until 6pm last night, and I had a class I TOTALLY forgot about (until the alarm popped up) during lunch, so I didn't get a chance to go to the post office. I think I'll run and do that for lunch.  

Wow! Wow!

Wow. Okay - so much stuff going on/happened last night.

Firstly of course, I got the iPod. It's TINY. Oh my god! I mean - I knew it was little, but that's just CRAZY - I've made it up to the M's in my cd collection  - seventy something albums, 2 days worth of music. I had a LOT of CD's. I got the swimsuits - and they are really nice!! They are COMFY, and actually look purty cute. I've changed my mind about joining the Y right awaythough - I'll join after the first, because cholrine is getting no where NEAR my freshly dyed hair. And yeah, I like it more today. It's IMPOSSIBLE to get a good picture of it though - looking at the pictures, you can hardly tell a difference - but looking at my head - it's BRIGHT. Bright in a good way - I feel like I should be a SuperHeroine *flame on!* of some sort.
I got the external drive too, but as I haven't installed the software (note the fact that I am up to 'M') I haven't installed it yet. I figure it's test will be me transferring all of me music over.

In even almost more rocking news - the midwife K, called me around 6pm last night, and said that she was on her way to a birth, and if the parents gave their okay, she would call me over so I could observe. I was hopeful, but I seriously doubted that this SEVEN time mom would want a total stranger all up in her good bits, and much to my unsuprise - I slept peacefully through the might. Dammit!! Anyhow - that forced me to get OFF my tail, and run the doula concept past my (pregnant) boss, and she's TOTALLY cool with it. Eeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!  so - that sooo bloody exciting - I'm going to call Kim this evening, ask her how the birth went, and let her know that I've been 'cleared' so to speak for duty.  Hmm....
Though, *sigh* she still rubs me the wrong way. I'm not used to people dealing with me as if I'm the same as the X number of other people they've dealt with before - esp., when clearly those x number of people didn't take time to learn their shit. For example, she gave me a mini-lecture on how 'The life of a doula/midwife requires you to be ready to jump out of bed to go to a birth at any time' - well, no shit, sherlock. Really, you don't have to spend five mintues impressing this on me - I got it. Seriously. *rolls eyes* *deep breath* Annnyyhoow, she didn't call me back anyway - I figure the birth might have been halfway done by the time SHE got there.  Anyhow, I'm sending her a thank you card this evening - just for taking time out of her busy schedule and talking to me, ya know?

Anyhow... what else? I need to get out of here at a decent time so that I can go back the postoffice and get a money order upgraded so that I can submit my dues to TMA......and then I have some little shindig for one of my coworkers this evening at 6:30pm - I'll have to try to wiggle out of that early......

Argh! (edited to YAAAAAAAAAyyyyyyyyy!!!!)

Okay. Look at this picture:

Let's say - you were a delivery person.  Let's say that you came down R St (the one that has the address) and notice that the corner house has 567, for example. You want to deliver to 569.  You park on the corner, and walk over to what I've noted as the back door. You attempt to open the back door, and are stopped by a huge ass padlock.  Just for the benefit of the doubt - there's no car in the driveway.  The street that the driveway opens onto is Y st, by the way. The house has been there for close to 20 years. Same address. Same setup.
Do you:
a) Shrug your shoulders and climb back in the truck - obviously they aren't home.
b) Toss the package over the gate - they'll be sure to get it that way.
c) Leave a delivery notice on the gate - obviously, it's the only way in the house.
d) Walk the five steps over to the driveway, notice the mailbox, the numbers on the gate, open the gate and ring the front doorbell.

Guess what - ANY of those answers would be right (as LONG as you don't pick D!!!). ARRRRRRRRGggggggggghhhhh!!

I mean, is it me, or is that NOT the most obvious thing in the world. HELLO! BIG ASS PADLOCK. Do you REALLLY think that's the front door? NO MAILBOX! It's NOT the front DOOR!! ARgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh.

If you ahven't guessed yet, the UPS guy came by the house WITH my swimsuits  *weeps* and my iPod *breaks down and sobs* He chose option c.  *sigh* Yes, I'm a brat, and yes, I'm going to go and pick them up tonight.

I've also made signs.

Hopefully, that will make life easier for everyone.  Dangit.

P.S. - though, to be fair, the FedEx guy ALWAYS gets it right. It's UPS and USPS (which really makes no sense as they DELIVER our freaking mail!!!) who get it wrong. Bastids.

Also - I've figured out what color my hair is. I kept wanting to think "Is it too orange? I think it's orange. Nah, it's not orange! but - it's not red, it's not blond, it's not brown". Finally, after looking at it in the sun, I've figure it out. My hair is copper. Almost like a freshminted penny, but darker. I'll admit - the roots are a wee bit orangy *sigh* but on the whole, it's copper. I like it. More and more, I like it. Give my hair a week or two for the roots to grow out a little more, and I'll most likely lurve it.

Edited: YYYYYAaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! I love the internet. I immeadiately went online after finding out about the 'oops, I don't know where your door is delivery' and switched it to will call today. While I was on the phone, I asked the guy if there was some sort of NOTE on that address that said 'Deliver to Patio Door'. He said no, but also said that he would call the driver and try to see if he could get him to redeliver.  I JUST got off the phone with the driver (who I had to DIRECT to the blankety blanking blank blank front gate) and *sigh* *sniff* *smile* I've GOT it!! My iPod, my precious....... *rubs hands together evilly* and yeah, I got swimsuits too.... but MY iPod is here. And, the external drive got delivered today too. Sweet.

Like whoa! - includes Music Request

So, the hair's dried, and it's a weee bit lighter/brighter than it was yesterday. I think I like it, but I'm still not totally sure - I think it might be more WHOA! shock that I haven't gotten used to it yet - but I have to admit it looks very - funky. *grin* And that's funky in a good way - I just need somebody to look at me and say - yeah, that looks good. Someone I can trust - who's up for Maggies tonight??? *LOL* The hubby likes it - but he's a GUY! We all know he doesn't count. ;)
But seriously - I LIKE it. It's jsut weird. *LOL* Like me, I guess. Now I wanna cut it - the color (to me) seems to highlight the funky 'layers' my hair has - and because the dying contracts my locs and makes them tighter (and skinnier) it's - just - different. but not BAD! *grin* yes, yes, I'm flipfloping. I'll take another picture tonight in the sun since it's dry....post it and see what ya'll think!

In other news: The swimsuits are on a truck to get here, the damn iPod is still in Knoxville - ooh!! I take that back! It flew out of Knoxville at 9:35 this morning (I heart UPS tracker) - so I MIGHT get it today *rubs hands together evilly* the skin got shipped today, the XboX left Greensboro, NC this morning, the PS2 got shipped this morning - slowpoke eBayer! - the external drive is on a TRUCK for delivery!! (hmmm the FedEx delivery place is in Cordova, interesting), and I think that's everything. Sheesh!! Oh!! My request for the domain name got approved too - hopefully the DNS servers will be updated by tonight!
I spent the weekend dying my hair (that was a two day process!) and getting started on uploading all of my CD's to iTunes - so far, I've made to to the 'I's, and I have about 2 days worth of a music, a mere 2GB. But!!! Readers of mine!! You guys have some pretty cool, pretty ecletic music tastes - and I figure, for 99 cents, I can try anything. I LOVE music, but I'm cheap (ignore the listing of crap getting shipped to my house, I AM cheap - really!!!) and I'm not into buying MORE cd's that I only like one song off of. So - with the iPod, I figure I'll be able to really let my tastes wander and explore. Ooohhh.....So - ya'll do me this favor, okay??
Leave me a note, with at least TWO artists that you love, but think are underrated - include what genre they are, and if you have a favorite song/album - include that too.  *grins*
I figure at the very least, I'll be able to find a few new gems to enjoy.... ooh... I need to email all my musically eclectic friends too!!

Half the office is missing today - I figure it'll be a slow, slow, slow Monday. I need to go to the bank during lunch and deposit C's check, and I plan on cutting out of here ASAP!

Have Good Monday Yall!!

Hair Magic *bling!*

Okay.... so my hair is done!  There was a scary moment in their for a second - but that was swiftly repaired this morning.

So - here is me with freshly tighted up hair (see how dark my roots are):

Now - the first thing I have to do, is bleach my hair (as I've tried to dye red on my natural hair and I end up with NOTHING!)  So - I mix up a double serving of Manic Panic's Bleaching kit, and tossed it in my hair. I had snipped a loc from right above my rear hairline, and had tested it in the bleach so that I could be sure about how long it would take...I figured something along the lines of 90 minutes, based on the test loc.
Here I am, AFTER the bleach job:

Can I TELLL you how much I loved the blond??? Oh my god - my hair is DEFINITELY going to go blond at some point - HOT I'm telling you!! But..... I wanted to go for red this time.....so - I took the next step of dying. Now, for some dumb ass reason (I think it was beause I liked the blond so much, I didn't want to go TOOO red) I mixed the hiar dye together in different proportions for my hair than I had used on the test lock (which came out GOREGOUS). I also made the mistake of not leaving the dye on long enough (another straying from the test loc) and washed the dye out of my hair. I could IMMEADIATELY tell my hair was pink. I'm talking - it was a pale pretty pink - the red had just not been on long enough to REALLY take.  I went 'EEEEKKKKKKKK!' ran downstairs, mixed up the remaining red hair dye, and sat my ass down for 90 more mintues with that on my hair.  I rinsed it out - and while it was still kinda pale, it wasn't OBVIOUSLY pink, so - I figured I'd live with that for the night, and get another box of red hair dye Sunday morning.

This is me Sunday Morning:

Kinda hard to tell here, but my hair is still pretty pale - goldenpale under the red enough that it looks like a off dye job rather than a semi-natural color of hair.

I used a box of Feria in the red color that I wanted, mixed it up, left it on for MY usual 90 minutes, washed it out, conditoned it with their stuff, and ended up with this:

which I LOVE!! This picture was taken while it was still wet - it's got all ofthe gorgeous little golden blond strands going through it - I can't WAIT to see how it lightens up in the sun.

So....all together, I went from this to this:

Which, now that I look at them side by side, is more or less EXACTLY what I wanted - a rich red with blond highlight (I can't wait to see what colors the tips are going to turn - I think that the red is going to fade out and I'll have blond tips) AND - it's dark enough that as my roots grow out, it won't be toooo noticable.

*sigh* Now, it I can just figure out how to give my hair some volume (maybe I'll braid it before it completely dries) I'd be SET.

P.S. - This is dedicated to everyone who asked where I was in the picture request section - my hair was too icky to take pictures of......

bored, bored, bored.......

with my hair, that is. I've been picking apart locs here and there, (mostly in the back, and behind my ears) but a) there's no way in hell I'd have the patience to do my whole head - esp. considering taking apart ONE loc takes about half an hour - and I have close to 200 freaking locs and b) my unlocked hair is a good bit shorter than I thought it would be, and I LIKE having the long, tossable, ponytailable, easy as hell to manage  hair, dammit.

So.....I haven't dyed my hair for well over a year - maybe a year & half, because I think the last time I dyed it was Nov 2003, and I think it's high time that I do so again.

I'm in the South, and I know that my hair will lighten up in the sun....so I'm thinking about bleaching it, then finally getting the red that I've been waiting for EONS. If it sucks, or looks utterly hideous, I can always cover it with a brownish shade again. So - tonight, I'm going to wash my hair, tighten up the roots (so that I don't end up with the extra light roots I usually have) and then go out to Sally's (ALLLL the way by damn work) and get some dye. HMm.... I need to figure out which loc will be sacrificied for the hairdye test.....since I've picked all of the ones in my USUAL spot out.  hmm.... maybe right above the hair line then....

Heh. I think I'll suprise C with it tomorrow night - he got the funny colored eyes (ya'll, my husband has hazel eyes now - and he WONDERS why the women at work flirt with him!) and I'll have the funny colored hair.  Muahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................

 

ooohhhh!!! survey!!

Stolen shamelessly from Thunder Road.....

 High School Quiz Thing

 

 

 

1. What year was it? 1991-1995

2. What were your three favorite bands? TLC, SnoppDogg, and SWV  
3. What was your favorite outfit? Ohh... what ever I actually PURCHASED from a store, as I was still mostly in mom's homemade outfits.
4. What was up with your hair? *thinks*  medium length, nappy & natural as hell, usually in cornrows under a headpiece.

 5. Who were your best friends?  Ella, Elisha, JJ, Felix, Frankeya, LaNina, Mitchell & Nee.

6. What did you do after school? Debate Club or work

7. Where did you work? The local public library - yeah, I was a nerdy nerd even then.

8. Did you take the bus? Sometimes I walked, sometimes my mom dropped me off. I lived a BLOCK too close to the school to ride the bus
9. Who did you have a crush on? Ohhh... Ricky. Star basketball player. I was just the smart girl who MIGHT let you copy her homework.

10. Did you fight with your parents? Nah - I was just secretly evil, and did my best to never get caught.
11. Who did you have a CELEBRITY crush on? Marina Sirtis & Johnathen Fraker  (Also known as Deanna Troi & Commander Riker from Star Trek: Next Generation....) (see - told you I was a nerdy nerd).

12. Did you smoke cigarettes? Nope!

13. Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack all day because you were too nervous to find your  locker?   Nope - I usually left them home, actually. Though I did hate my locker, never had to worry about finding it though - our school only had about 350 students - and being the in the 'senior' class all the time helped. I started highschool in the 9th grade, they started the 'Academy (better known as the Acadummy by the 'normal' school kids) in my tenth grade, and I started going there in tenth grade - so we were always the top of the crop - which means we had the best lockers on the first floor.
14. Did you have a 'clique'? Yeah - the 'smart' kids - nerdy nerds, all of us.

15. Admit it, were you popular?  Nah....A lot of people KNEW me (one of the few Muslim girls in the school, and the smartest kid in the school period - besides having the funktastic last name? Yeah - people knew of me, at least).

16. Who did you want to be just like? Hmm...nobody really.

17. What did you want to be when you grew up? I wanted to be an artise. Or at the very least, filthly rich. I had simple dreams.

18. Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now? Ohh...at least two kids, a published book or two, and at least one showing in a well known art gallery. HAH! Didn't think I would be married though - I mean, as a rich artist, I COULD be a single mom, right? I even had two of the sperm donors (artificial alllll the way) picked out.

My sophmore year picture - aren't I a sad looking little thing? Holy shit, I think I still OWN that jacket. I've been telling myself I need to get rid of it, but it's a Jones New York, dammit! Of course, the timy moth holes in the sleeve mean I hardly EVER wear it - but STILL. But yes, Nerdly McNerd I was. Damn.  Actually... that might be a linen jacket I used to own - the one I have now is the same damn color though. And we aren't even going to TALK about the glasses. Sweet mother of heaven.

Just to show ya'll the difference (and to prove I wasn't a nerdly mcnerd always) this is my senior picture. Amazing, isn't it? I LOVED those damn glasses. loved them, loved them, loved them. I barely look like the same girl/woman.

 

Sorry about the crappy picture quality - pictures of pictures never turn out well.

Random edit after staring at the difference (and looking at myself in the mirror): and somehow, my lips shrunk. Weird.

Hopskipping across the country

Okay....I've got several things in the mail.....
1) The iPod - which is hopskipping across the country - it started in Brooklyn, NY, then went to Parsipanny, NJ, then to Harrisburg, PA, and now it's in Fisherville, VA. The hell? This is what happens when you chose ground shipping. It's in Knoxville now!! It and my swimsuits are at least in the same state as I am. Yayy!
2) The swimsuits - two days air - they left VA and are in Knoxville now.
3) The XboX is getting mailed this morning....
4) The skin is getting mailed Monday (the same day I'll hopefully GET the iPod)
5) I don't know what's going on with the PS2.
6) *hangs head in shame* The new crop of books I ordered from bookcloseouts.com (I have issues! help! help!) will get shipped at some point.
7) *hangs head even lower in shame* The 80GB external drive my evil evil evil friend talked me into buying is in Newark. But I needed it!! I have a 60GB iPod on the way - and my harddrive is ONLY 30GB. I mean really....and besides, just in case my harddrive gives up the ghost again, I won't lose all mah shit.

See - this is why I don't SPEND money in large amounts - once I start I can't stop until it's allllll gone. *le sigh* At least the boy get's paid today.... I need to find a copy of my old lease so that we can get reimbursed for that.  

Let see - what else? Took the day off yesterday - a nice little blurb about what I did for part of the day is in my Path To Tomorrow chapter - cleaned up the house a bit, washed the cat bed, somehow forgot to eat all day.....except for some olives....ummm.......ran C to work, but didn't have to pick him up (thankfully) what else? I think that's about it.

Oh! I almost forget!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAA!Y! it's FRIDAY!! *does the funky little dance*

But i hungry now, so I go get lunch now.  *huggles*

How to Become a Midwife

Jezzybelle asked me this question on my previous entry, and I've gotta elaborate on it - because actually quite a few people have asked me this.

There are a couple of different types of training for midwives, and a few different kinds of certification. Some are legal in every state, others are illegal in some states, and some states take an alegal stance - there simply are NO laws that apply. So....

1. Nurse-midwife (NM): This is the one that is most likely best known, and the one that is legal to practice in a hospital in all states. Some states prohibit NM's from attending home births, others don't.  Even here, you have a couple of different options based on what school you go to. There are several schools that offer an excellerated BS to Master's in Nursing program that takes three years. Other schools want you to be an RN first, then enroll in the Master in Nurse Midwifery program.  The excellerated course usually takes 3 years, the full RN/MN course normally takes 5 to 7.  Obviously, considering formal schooling is involved, this is the most expensive route - but since you are able to work in hospitals, it's also the route that can insure the largest return.


2. Certified Professional Midwife (CPM) : This is the one that tends to be legal in some states, and alegal in the rest.  Usually it means that the woman has gone through some sort of training program, including an apprenticeship, and then has gotten certified through NARM (North American Registry of Midwives). Usually, these women attend only homebirths, as most hospitals won't give them priveledges. Becoming a midwife through this path requires a lot more initiative and work on the students part, as there aren't many 'preset' programs, and a lot of independant study is required. One of the best distance learning programs is AAMI - Ancient Art of Midwifery Institure.


3. Liscened Midwives (LM): this is a state by state thing - some states offer licensing, others don't. The path is generally the same as the CPM's - with a different final legal status. Once again, there is a lot of independant work, and an appreticeship period.


4. Direct Entry Midwives (DEM): This role tends to be either illegal or alegal in most states, but it's the traditional path of midwifery - where you apprentice for several years to another midwife, learning, on the job, so to speak. What state you live in, and who you apprentice with mainly determines what you learn. This is the cheapest way - but also the longest, because you are learning through hands-on experience, and regretfully, most midwives in most states AREN'T dealing with anything more than 30 - 50 births a years (and that's a serioiusly break neck schedule - roughly a birth a week).

A great resource for learning about the legal/alegal/illegal statuses of each of these types of midwives (as well as whether NM's are allowed to attened homebirths) can be at MANA - Midwives Alliance of North America.

Soo.... I think that about covers it as far as midwives go. Training to be a Doula is much more straightfoward (and faster, and cheaper) because no clinical skills are taught. Most doulas are NOT clinicians, and they are prohibited (either by their certifying authority or by states laws) from performing clinical skills such as vaginal exams, fetal heartrates,  blood pressure checks, and all the rest of that jazz. A doulas main skill is in her hands and her voice to support the mom, the family, and the practioner - whether it be an OB, or a midwife.

Feel free to ask me ANYTHING else you like - this is one subject I can talk about for HOURS.

Interesting Interview....

So - I actually took yesterday off, but it sure as hell was no vacation day - I did quite a good bit of running around. One interview/meeting that I went to was with the homebirth midwife here - I'll call her K, and her assistant M.

It was interesting - I got there while she was finishing up with a client, and I sat in the waiting room and listened to her interacting with the mom. *shrugs* It wasn't an interaction that made me feel all warm and fuzzy - she seemed a little, strident I guess - a little abuprt. Anyhow, she wrapped that up about 15 minutes after I got there, and we sat down and talked.
I told her what led me to wanting to be a midwife/doula, and what my current lifesituation was - it was a good conversation, and she gave me several tips around what I should do. Speaking of which:

LADIES: If you were looking for a doula, and found a website, what information would you want to be there???

I've started working on my website, (I love building new wbesites), I've designed the business cards, and K gave me a few suggestions of women/co-ops that I could work with in order to get some hands on experience.

The things that - kinda rubbed me the wrong way (but looking at it from her perspective, I can kinda understand) were - largely how she talked about her fellow doulas/midwives in the area. Just from her conversation, I can see that there are power struggles, cliques, and two sides of the midwifery world here. One side is willing to go with the flow - bite their tongues, throw up their hands and say 'things aren't going to change here, so why even try to change it?' She's a firm member of that camp - but she's been working in this area for 12 years, and maybe she's just tired of fighting. The other side is what she calls 'vigilante' doulas, including the local Bradley instructor (who just from what she said - I've GOT to take classes with this woman!) These are the doulas/midwives who firmly believe that women should get exactly the service they want from their doctors, and should demand that service - no matter how much it might irritate the powers-that-be. Then - she goes on to say that the women who are part of that 'vigilante' group are basically ostricized by the other midwives and doulas in the area - when they are giving referrals, they leave them off the list, and they don't mention them at all - it's like these other women don't even exsist.
I don't like cattiness, I think it's the height of unprofessionality, and I don't think that telling a new doula who is interested in working with the women is this area that there are people she needs to stay away from is - appropiate. I'm a grown woman, I should be able to make my own judgement calls about people, based on their interactions with me and their moms, NOT based on gossip, hersay, and heaven knows what else. I also think that they are doing a disservice to the moms by not recommending these women - it's NOT their place to regulate the type of service a doula is willing to offer, nor is it their place to decide (independant of the moms) that this doula isn't an 'appropiate' fit for what they consider a doula to be. Every woman is different, and some of them might NEED a tigress by their side rather than a lapcat. If the doulas aren't GOOD, let the moms make that decision - don't ostracize them because you don't like their politics. *rolls eyes*
And of course, I'm saying all of this from a total outsiders perspective - a young, inexperienced, still fired-up and hoping to change the world one birth at a time perspective. I'm also a woman who knows the delicate skill of being stubborn without being loud, bitchy, or disrespectful - and as a mothers advocate, I think that's a healthy thing.
Though I have to admit - her comment that she isn't used to competition, having been the only homebirth midwife is this area for a long time, raised some red flags too......how much of the drama is being started/perpetuated by her?

So - I'm about to join the online group for this bunch of women, along with the Tenn. Midwives Asso. as a doula student. *sigh* I think it's going to be - interesting - to say the least. *rolls eyes* I can see that my new signature is going to be along the lines of: I serve mothers - not society!

There was a few things that she told me that helped me understand things a little better - firstly is that this area is a high-risk care center for the surrounding four states - and that affects the infant/maternal mortality/morbidity rates - exagerrating them in ways that don't really apply to the general health of the women in this community. I took that with a grain of salt, as there was a long series of articles in the paper (even bigger grain of salt) talking about the high infant mortality rates in Memphis - and somehow, I don't know if they were including or excluding the high risk clients. Anyhow - I think that - *sigh* dammit, I think that if these women took the time to put their petty intercine issues behind them, and serve WOMEN as they should be doing, the rate of change might speed up a little bit.
She also mentioned pricing - and holy shit! She suggested that I start charging what I had planned on charging AFTER certification, prior to certification. She did suggest that I offer to do births pro-bono (which was my plan all along) but that just in order to recoup gas money & time money, I should charge at least a little something - which, I've got nothing against.

All in all, I left her office feeling - excited. I'm going to talk to my (pregnant) boss in our one-on-one today, (the first one) and tell her about this 'side job' I'm starting, and ask her how best to work that around my schedule, as heaven knows babies do NOT come when you want them too....

So - the stuff I need to do is as follows:

1. 
   Order the business cards (the cheapest I can get, as I know I'm going to need new ones once I get certified)
   
   


2. 
   Finish my website
   
   


3. 
   grab a copy of Guerilla Marketing - which lists how to advertise for cheaper (if not free)
   
   


4. 
   find out how much an ad would cost in the local women's magazine, as well as the local parenting magazine.
   
   


5. 
   I want to find a doula that I can work with - either as backup or as an assistant until I can build my own client base - which I don't plan on doing actively until AFTER the training.
   
   


6. 
   *laugh* Buy ANOTHER organizer - I wonder if DONA sells any? They do - but good LORD are they ugly. *shudder*
   
   


7. 
   Finalize my contract and write a backup contract
   
   


8. 
   Make a list of the items that I want to have (massage powder, stress balls, hot/cold pads.........) and find a good bag.
   
   


9. 
   Join TMA and the Co-op
   
   


10. 
    Take a Bradley class - I really want to meet this vigilante (I guess I'm odd enough to NOT consider that a bad thing).
    
    

So dman exciting - my life is really getting busy & full.....it's - wonderful!!

More shopping

So, I also tossed the cash into the ether for my swimsuit(s).

After reading around for a while, I realized that the kind of swimsuit I wanted was more the 'lounging on the beach, sipping tropical drinks, dipping toes into the ocean on occasion' kinda swimsuits rather than the '4 times a week wear, swimming laps, and sweating underwater' kinda swimsuits. Soooo..... I got this one instead....

 

in 'Smurf' and 'Black'. I figured if the classes are going to be four times a week, and if I plan on swimming at least three times a week, it might be smart for me to have MORE than one swimsuit. I got it from Junonia which specialize in active wear for the size 14 and up woman. It's not nearly as 'cute' as I wanted, but hey - this is business wear so that at some point I CAN put on a swimsuit that looks like this:

ohlalaaaaa babbbyyyy!!!

Swim classes start the 3rd......I'm thinking I'll join as soon as I get the swimsuits, and that way I can at least splash around a little and TRY to teach myself some stuff.

*ggggggggggggggassp*

See.... I don't NORMALLY do stuff like this. It's - dangerous. It gives you a heady little rush, leaves your heart pumping, the palms of your hands sweaty, makes you slightly short of breath, and I'm sure creates some bad ass karma. I usually think things through - I usually am the patient, safe one. I'm usually the logical, levelheaded one. I'm usually not the one who does the dreaded swoop and steal.

But.

I did it.

And my hands are still sweaty, and my heart's still bumping, but - it's mine dammit. and I think I lost my greedy little mind for a second - but it's MINE, dammit. mineminemineminemine.... (hey - maybe I should get that engraved......)

So what is it?

Guess!

If you guessed a lovely little 20GB iPod, you'd be wrong.

If you guessed a lovely little 40GB 3G iPod, you'd be even wronger.

No - I went buckass wild.

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I got the ever so gnarly, ever so big, SIXTY GB iPod Photo. It holds (drumroll please) fifteen THOUSAND songs. 15,000. 15K. Or, up to 25,000 (twenty five thousand, uhhuh, uhhuh) pictures.

Holy shit.

And got it for 80 bucks under retail - including shipping.

I seriously need to stay the hell away from eBay!!!!

but.

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! new toy, new toy, new toy!!!

Edit: And oh yeah - I got the skin too....

Front:


and back:

I showed it to my best boyfriend, and he was like - "Yeah, that's TOTALLLY you" and it is - a sassy ass black woman surrounded by blue. Despite my diary colors, I LOVVVVEEEE blue. In fact, I think my diary was almost always shades of blue until rather recently.

ipod obsession

See... I go through days - one day, I'm a good workerbee, diligently keeping my nose to the grindstone. The next, I'm all aflitter, screwing about online for most of the day.

So.....after realizing that the  40GB (12,000 songs!) is a 3rd Generation, and the 20GB (a mere 5,000 songs) is 4th Generation, I'mma quit being greedy, and get the 20GB. Now, of course there are two main questions.
1) What kinda skin do I get? and
2) What do I get engraved on it? I get two lines, 27 characters each like (a total of 54). Umm....let me go and grab the previous thoughts my bored little mind came up with:

• 'Turn the beat around...'  (quite cool, as it has the little turny ring thing in the middle)


• 'Get your own damn music!'


• 'I'm too sexy for my iPod!'(one vote for this from the LOVELY Bella!)


• 'Kneel before the Dancing Queen'


• 'I'm so bootylicious!!!'


• 'I can't hhheeeaaarrr you!!'


• 'Boogie Nights!  *dumdumdumdumda*'


• 'Everything must change - esp. my playlist!


• 'Dancing to the beat of my own damn drummer'

3) Of course though, the fact that I plan on getting a MacSkinz kinda defeats the purpose of getting something engraved, as it'll get covered up - but the engravings FREE! Free I tell you!
I'm thinking about either this one:

or this one:

or this one (just cuz it's soooo damn GIRLY!!)


though, this one is even girlier:


or, if I liked green a little more - this one:

Ahhh... choices, choices......

wonderous wonders

Really, I don't think there is anything much better than opening up your mail, and getting an unexpected windfall. I mean - seriously dude - having money just FALL into your lap like that - ROCKS. (speaking of which, I need to get a recipt from the lease breaking so that I can get THAT money back too!!)

So - what have I done with this LOVELY windfall??
1) Finally got C his birthday gift(s) - a new PS2, as his is being bitchly, an XboX, 5 new games, and an extra controller. The rawking ass part? I did it eeeeeeebbbbaaaayyyyyyyyy - and spent a smidgen over 300 for everything.  Yes, I'm encouraging him in his video game addiction. And yes, I know we are WAYYY behind the curve, as they are coming out with both a NEW XboX and a PS3.
2) I'm getting myself an iPod. Yayy!! Yayyy!!  And I'm getting one of those sexyass skins - ooohhh yeah baby!!! IP actually offers a tiny, tiny, discount...they normally cost 299.00 (ouchy, ouchy!) but I get to get it for 281.00!! Hey - that might be enough for me to get expedited shipping or sumthin. And, you can get laser engraving on the back for free - what do I want, what do I want?

• 'Turn the beat around...'  (quite cool, as it has the little turny ring thing in the middle)


• 'Get your own damn music!'


• 'I'm too sexy for my iPod, too sexy for my iPod, so sexy that it huuurrrtttsss'


• 'Kneel before the Dancing Queen'


• 'I can't hhheeeaaarrr you!!'


• 'Boogie Nights!  *dumdumdumdumda*'


• Any other suggestions???

3) I'm debating the last one - should I get a sewing machine, or should I fix the speakers in the car? sewing machine/speakers/sewing machine/speakers??? Of course, I might be able to get both, but I have no CLUE how much the speakers are gonna be. I figure the sewing machine I want would cost about 200 - ooohhh... scratch ALL that - I know exactly what I'm getting .....
4) NEW SHEETS FOR OUR BED!!! and a new damn duvet cover. Yes, LORD.

*off to shop online*

Oohhh....

a very rare entry from home. I've gotten mostly caught up on my 'home' stuff, though I STILL haven't washed my hair. Gah!

Let's see - what else? Ah yes - two days away from the first appointment with the therapist, it should be interesting seeing how that goes. I'm - gah - I'm confused by MYSELF right about now. I mean - am I just bored with my husband? I don't think so - I mean, he's still sexy, wonderful, amazing, giving, loving - all that good shit - it's just that I so RARELY wanna have sex with him.

And then, I'm thinking about this whole girlfriend thing, and while I think it'll be fun for a while, I'm SERIOUSLY not trying to find a 'girlfriend'. I want a running partner that I can have sex with sometimes - I think another married woman would actually be easiest - I guess I'm kinda nervous about T's expectations - and since she's a virgin - I REALLY don't wanna break her. *snicker* Besides the fact that the woman hasn't had sex in two years, and she doesn't own any toys - hell, I take that back, she might break ME. But - we'll see if there is any chemistry there. And once again, it's the whole one-on-one thing.... gah! Somehow, I don't THINK there honestly will be any chemistry - she's - needy. *shudder* And I really think she wants romance....and I'm like the anti-romantic - loving as hell, but - romance? ughha. I wanna be a slutwife. *sigh*

And I've also ALWAYS gotten along better with boys - just period. So - *sigh* I don't know what the hell I'm doing. We'll see.

Whaaa????

It's Monday ALREADY???? Sheesh - what happened to the weekend??

Saturday, I was quite busy - had to run some errands, (must get patches for C today!) and go to the bookclub meeting.  I really enjoying hanging out with those ladies and talking about the books - I let them rope me into being the secretary for the group, and it's fun - I'm still not totally clear on what my duties are, but hey - it's fun!!

Sunday is officially Me & C's day - since it's the only day we have off together (he's off today, but clearly, I'm at work!) so we just slept in, grilled, played a couple of games - general houselovey fun. 

Our garden is doing sooooo well!! Almost everything has spouted/growing - I'm going to have having to thin them - they all look so vibrant. Somethings been nibbling on our plants already, so we stirred up some organic pesticide (garlic, onion, cayenne pepper and soap) and sprayed the plants - hopefully that will 'scare' off the bugs.  These are for US, not ya'll - stay away, stay away!!

I installed SIMS (I've got the double deluxe pack - I want to get the Making Magic expansion pack) but I haven't played it yet - we got involved in playing Yu-Gi-Oh instead.

Ahh! Lunch time!! Free barbeque today - yayyy!!

postweekend rambles

It's been a good weekend - had sex AGAIN - spontaneous, right before he went to work. It was fun - quick, easy, and I tormented him a little afterwards (thank YOU, Dr. Kegel!!) I think I must be ovulating, because I've used by vibrator almsot everynight before I go to sleep. I'm a naughty girl - my favorite fantasy is most likely one of the least socially acceptable ones, and my second favorite involves exhibitionism. Years ago, I said if I ever lost enough weight, I would most likely get a parttime job stripping. Heaven knows I've got the boobs & ass for it - if I could only get rid of me tummy.

What else? I've started the hunt for a girlfriend - yes, I know it sounds odd since I have a low(er) libidio, but I really think that part of it is because I AM bisexual - no shadow of a doubt there, and if I only express half of my libidio, I repress the whole of my libidio - it's actually been really fun - and I figure I'll have a better chance of finding a woman who is interested in me AND my hubby quicker if I just look on my own rather than as a couple. I've actually MET one girl already - she is in my bookclub, and we actually met online - and it took us a day or so to realize that we had already met earlier - had no clue that the other swung that way either. We are supposed to meet this weekend - I'm SO excited, and I hope she feels the same way. She's a virgin - so THAT's going to be interesting, but - I think it'll be cool - even if we don't hit it off sexually, I think that I might have discovered a running partner. She's a bit older than me - but based on her attitude, you wouldn't guess it.

I'm getting involved in a lot of other things too - I'm the admin for our bookclub, I'm doing the lifepath training, I'm a moderator of one of the bi yahoogroups in Memphis - what else? Work - of course! Putting together our house (naturally!) but - I'm not going to let all of the good/happy/wonderful feelings/things that I'm doing let me convince myself that I shouldn't still go to therapy - it's going to be interesting talking to this lady - I'm going to have to feel her out - because I don't care how 'objective' a therapist is supposed to be, there's always the likelihood that her own opinions on the 'proper' relationships won't match mine - and I'm sorry - I DON'T know what my issues are, but being bi is most certainly not one of them. Being interested in a poly marraige isn't one of them either - and I'd be damned if someone tries to pin my issues on that. *sigh* Accept me for the whole woman that I am, mmkay?

I've always noticed that I work better in 3's than I do in couples - for example, if it's just me & another person talking - I tend to be shy/reserved - but get me around two or more people, and a whole nother bubbly, social, talkative as HELL side comes out. My image a perfect relationship/living situation has always been a commune along the lines of what Friday had from Robert Heinlien's book Friday. A large marriage group, with everyone responsible for raising the children, for supporting the family as a whole, in a big ass house on a couple of acres of land. Basically, a commune. I should run that idea past C and see what he thinks - I'm so cool with the concept of multiple wives/husbands - even if all the wives AREN'T bi - it's more about the concept of an extended, reliable, loving familyunit than it about the sex.

Picture Requests - Part One

Wow - you guys asked for a LOT of pictures..... I think I'll be able to get everything, except the picture of my favorite meal by C - he's working now, and it's going to be hard to get him to cook ANYTHING at home for a while..... but - with no further ado!!!

show your favorite place in you home and why....[Half Baked]

This is the view(s) from my chair on the patio - a lovely sky & tree view - and a fence high enough so I can stroll out side in me draws. This question was almost a tie - but I figured I liked the patio more than the bed. :)

your desk and workspace at your office; maybe even a pic of the bldg? [Sweet Magnolias]

My lovely desk - the computer has my notes screen (yes, I'm a closet note 'ho), the big purple cup is my 32oz of water...the colorful stuff on the wall are the various calendars/landscapes and other dately crap I have to keep up with. The white stuff is legal paper I put on the cube wall as a whiteboard substitue - I NEED my whiteboard!



The continuation of my desk - more of my 'whiteboard' and the two pictures on the side are a print of my favorite wedding picture, and the girls from my old job. *sniff* I miss my girls. And really, I didn't straighten up my desk at all!

This is the outside of the building - the way I come in, which is the backside, as our section of the building is ALLLLL the way in the back. We also have a VERY convienent FedEx box....and no, I'm never lucky enough to get one of the GOOD parking spots. There's just something WRONG about getting to work before 7:00am.

your book collection! [Stealth Bombshell]

Okay - these are pictures of the main library upstairs. Those - colorful things on top of the one bookcase are BlueEyes White Dragon, and Exodio the Forbidden One - two Yu-Gi-Oh figurines of C's. The little bookcase in the middle is the one we got from Pottery Barn.
If you can tell, all of the books on top of the bookcase without the Egyptian Gods *rolls eyes* are stacked four across and three deep - and the shelved themselves are stacked two deep on both bookcases. In fact - the WHOLE bookcase on the left is all my paperback sci-fi/fantasy books. The bookcase in the middle holds the hardback ones.


This is the second set of books - and those are the bookcases we got from PierOne. Those are most of the non-fiction books, and the top three shelves of the bookcase on the right are all of my doula/midwifery books, along with a few of the itty bitty books I've collected. THe door in the middle leads to our bathroom(s). The one on the side closest to the library is mine.
And yes, that is a Scarface movie poster above the bookcase. *shakes head*

And this is the library books collection - I have to keep these separate, otherwise I'd be banned from the library in short time. I actually need to go around the house and round the rest of them up, as all of those sheleves should be full. In the corner in front of the TV, you can see a bit of the other cabinet we got from PotteryBarn for the videos, and that black thing is the front of the fireplace. *grin* If you look closely, you can see The Jetsons on TV. I heart Boomerang.

Your vehicle - from the driver's perspective. [Principassa Pollyana]

I'm short, so all I really can see is the steering wheel! *LOL* And I would have taken a picture of the whole car, but it's so dirty, I'd be ashamed to show it. The fence in front is atthe front of the house, and theres actually enough room to fit the car in there, but opening and closing that gate every morning would REALLY be a headache. There is a SUPER cheap gas station near work (the latest is 1.94!!) which is why the gas tank is so wonderfully full.

This is the middle panel - that's my frog prince that C won out of one of those machines for me when we first started dating. He's holding a little heart that says 'Kiss Me' *giggles* The ring around his ankle is one of C's ring I jacked a long time ago. He's lost enough weight that it doesn't fit him anymore, so the Prince get's to keep it. And of course, a bottle of water. Oh! You can see Miss Elizabeth, our neighbors house out the front window too.

Your makeup. I'm always curious to see what beauty products people use! [Cinderella] & [Bellisa]

*LOL* I wear makeup when I'm going out (and I mean seriously OUT on the town - I didn't even wear makeup for our anniversary dinner) and when I wear it, it's usually just eyeliner, eyeshadow, and lipstick. All that said - here's the makeup collection. If you couldn't tell - I LOVE M.A.C. Love it! The only reason I have brushes is because the nice lady at the M.A.C. counter talked me into buying them - and I HAVE to admit, it really does make a difference in the application. But let's see - concelaer, eyeshadow, pressed powder, foundation, eyeliner, lipliner, lipstick, more eyeshadow , and mascara (which I've used like twice - I'm sure it's old enough that I need to throw it out by now). I have more brushes - like five or six, but I didn't feel like dumping them all in the sink. :)

The only thing that I use on my face daily is a castor oil/olive oil/vitamin E oil mix. I got the idea from [Babyslime] who first turned me on to the Oil Cleansing Method. It sounded TOTALLY off the wall to me at first, but I think I've used soap on my face MAYBE once or twice since January - and I haven't put lotion of anykind on my face at all. I need to stir up a new batch this weekend too - I've got about enough left for just this weekend. My skin looks better than it EVER has - smooth, rarely get pimples, and when I do, I 'clean' my face, and they usually pop right out and are totally gone by the next day. I also had REALLLLLY had flakes on my skin from where it just dried out - those are totally gone too - and nope, my face isn't oily at all. It's weird, but it WORKS - and it's cheap as HELL.
The Taco Bell cup is my bedtime water cup. Damn, I drink a lot of water.

Actually, I do want to see your cats. [Thunder Road]

Okay - it was HARD getting good pictures of these two, they liked closing their eyes just as the camera snapped.
This is Giovanni, more affectionately know as FatBastard. If you can't tell how big he is, he weighs 19 pounds. He looks even bigger, as he's a long THICK haired cat. I joke that I could shave him and make a sweater....maybe two. He's outside on the patio - another reason why I love it - I can let them be outside with no worries.

This is Nikki - or StupidCat (or Shortbus Kitty). I wrote an entry about HIS adventure the first day in our house a while ago. He hates other cats with a passion, and there's this cute little girlcat (she's too little to be a boy) that hangs around outside the window and drives him batty. Considering how much of a fraidycat he REALLY is, it's actually kinda funny. He acts like he's half dog though - as SOON as he gets outside, he flops down and rolls around to collect as many bits of leaves, dirt and other crap in his fur as possible. He's my cuddly dingbat though. And as you can tell - he's MUCH slimmer than G - a mere 13 pounds.

I have TWO requests- your FAVORITE pair of shoes.......[~Bella~] (Bella's other request was the makeup - check out the previous entry)

*grins* I need to go shoe shopping BADLY, so while these are my favorite shoes, they actually aren't the shoes I wear the most often. One pair is too casual, and the other pair is WAYYY too dressy - I call them my Hot-Momma Shoes. *raawwwrrr*
These are my hot momma shoes - on the edge of the ledge upstairs. That black thing they are so artfully propped up on is my Abercizer - which has been peacefully collecting dust for a while now. I can't remember where I got these from - there NineWest, but I think I got them from ValueCity.

And these are the casual shoes - sooooo damn comfy. And they're black! and PINK! eeeeeeee!!!! *goes all gooshy eyed* And I actually have a running suit (HAH!) outfit that matches these perfectly. I brought these for a 'traveling' trip before one of my trips to Geneva - gotta look cute while I'm on the plane, ya know. And I learned my lesson about wearing heels on an international flight the time I had to run from one end of the terminal to the other at Charles De Gaulle - the worst airport in the world. Ugh. That cord next to them is leading from the closet upstairs, over the ledge, and hooked up to the cable modem. I need to call my landlord and find out when the HELL he's going to install our wireless. Sheesh.

[~Steel Magnolia~] had all of the following requests......

A picture of the infamous and no longer leaking waterbed.

Oh. My. God. I don't think I've gushed (so to speak) properly about the new watebed - but it's HEAVENLY. I mean, I knew waterbeds were hot, but this one is the shit. Seriously. It's got some sort of pillowtop thingy that fills with water, and it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO damn comfy. Ingore the hideously unmatched sheets (we need new waterbed sheets BADLY) and the general unmade state of the bed and messy condition of the room. That's C's side of the upstairs, so all that stuff on the floor are his clothes. Not that I can talk, as there are clothes on the floor on my side too - if you take a close look at the bookcollection pictures - yeah, I need to wash. I don't know what the heck that white thing is on the bottom of the bed - and yes, our bed is the only furniture in the bedroom. We need nightstands, but haven't found any we are both pleased with yet. We don't have dressers either - it's sad.

Your reading space (unless it is the above mentioned bed).

Nah - the only time I read in bed is if I'm reading myself to sleep, or waiting for C to come upstairs (*grin* have I mentioned how much I LOOOOOVEEEEE our waterbed???) My favorite reading space is our only piece of furniture currently in the living area - the futon. Hmm.... I think it's actually my oldest piece of furniture. This picture was taken from the steps coming downstairs (have I mentioned that I LOVE our house too??) Let's see - the big purple thing is the futon - the laptop is there in front of it - and our 'coffee table' Why we still use the trunk when we have a PERFECTLY nice glass topped coffeetable (over in the corner by the wall o windows) that we could use. As yes, it's a mess - but it's mostly papers. That black box on the coffee table is our WONDERFUL Black NagChampa that came in the mail today - the place almost smells like home again. The cat bed that G never uses (he's too fat to fit comfortably in it) is against the back wall. The TV is in front of the couch too - so it's just perfect. That big gray thing is the only remaining piece of our old furniture - it was all that color, and over the years got INFESTED with cathair. I love em, but ick.

And, the freezer compartment of your fridge.

Let's see - ice holder, ice tray (to replenish the ice holder) a hunk of steak waiting for the grill, some lovely hot pork sausage, a shaker (with ice) ready to make drink (yes, we STAY prepares) and ice cream (it's no Sugar Added!!! Really!!) More meeat - Italian sausage and ribs, I think....some Liqour (I need to make a run this weekend - that little bit of Curenta y Tres ain't gonna last long) and our oversized spices - to keep em fresh, ya know?

And on the door - See!! We do have veggies!! Brocolli, Spinach, and a poor bag of green beans on top. There's a plastic shot glass in there too (gotta measure the alcohol right) and some butter I got when it was on sale. I don't DO margerine. I don't care how low in cholesterol it is - I'd really rather go without. We really do need to go grocery shopping though - that's kinda light, even for us. I have to admit though, we eat more fresh produce than we do frozen.

~~QP asked me what my favorite place in Memphis is so far - and without a doubt - it's home.

This is the 'front' of the house - that gleaming eyed blob at the front door is G, wondering why the hell I haven't fed him yet. Our bed is between those two windows upstairs, and the window downstairs is the kitchen window.

This is the house as it faces the street - that little 'roof' over there is the patio - and as you can see, not only do we have a high ass fence, there's also a huge bush there too - SOOOOO wonderfully private. That's the Silver Streak in the driveway - I have no clue why it looks like the reverse lights are on. And while it doesn't LOOK like we have any windows, the whole other side of the house - the one next to the patio, is a wall of ceiling to floor windows downstairs, and upstairs there's a HUGE window over the open portion of the loft, and then a single window in the library.

Whooo!!! Thanks for all of your requests ladies - that was actually rather fun!!! Now I'm off to torture myself by installing SIMS back onto my computer. *shakes head*

let the hunt begin!!!

I am, if nothing else, a very deliberate person.  So, in this three week long search for a swimsuit, there are certain things that I would like to have.  If I can find all of these things - I'll snatch it up in a heartbeat.

1) The top has to go by BRA size - I'm a 38/40DDD, and dammit, I need the support - those damn 'shelf' bras don't do a damn thing for me. And why, why, must plus size women's swimwear come with ATTACHED 'padding'. I can understand it being there, but at least make it DETACHABLE.  
2) Boy panty bottoms - I went looking for a picture, but couldn't find one, but I did find that the real name is 'boyshorts'.  They are comfy, and they actaully are the cutest little things for my booty and belly.
3) Cute. As in attractive. As in, I'm 28, and I don't want my swimsuit to be anything my grandmother would even CONSIDER wearing - yet at the same time, I don't wanna have to worry about the girls making a break for freedom.
4) I suspect that this will be kinda optional/end up getting thrown out the window - under 100 bucks. Please?

Hmm...all together, I figure I'll HAVE to get a two piece tankini set - simply for the boy bottoms. I'd actually like the top to be sports bra styled, because if I going to be doing some serious swimming, I'm going to need the freedom of movement.....and.......sturdy. Okay, yeah - the last 'real' swimsuit I got was cheap as hell, but that's still no excuse for the strap to pop (see item #1).

My last set of swimsuit(s) were actually created out of desperation - I was going to the Dominican Republic in a little under two weeks, it was the middle of August, and I NEEDED to take more than one swimsuit.  After nearly crying in one 'speciality' swimsuit store (I found a lovely swimsuit that cost TWO HUNDRED AND EIGHTY dollars) I finally threw up my hands, took my tail to Victorias Secret, brought three bras (the current ABSOLUTE favorites in fact) and three sets of matching tank tops and boyshorts, and matching thongs (to go UNDER the boyshorts in case of an 'accident' cuz ain't NOBODY I'm not married to seeing THAT much of my ass), and 130 dollars later, left VS a happy lady. Of course, as the fabric wasn't DESIGNED to be a swimsuit, they just lasted the week and a half of the trip - I still wear the bras and the bottoms, but after all the salt and the chlorine, the tanktops are a little worse for wear.  I'm actually considering getting a maternity swimsuit - as I was leaving the mall from VS, I remember seeing them and noticing that they DID have 'real' bras in them, but hmmmm.....my belly isn't THAT big.

I swear though, if I could find them in the right fabric (ie, not cotton!) I would just do that again. It was SOoooooooo easy...and cheap.

 

eeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been in a gloriously floaty mood all day....no clue why considering I woke up as my usual evil, grumpy, why-the-hell-is-it-8am-already self, yet by the time I got to the car and starting singing my way to work - I was just plain old happy. Giddy, I just won the lottery (okay maybe not THAT happy) but just genereally cheerful.
Got to work, slammed a good 5 hours of work out (and considering it's FRIDAY that's damn near a miracle) and now, it's RAINING!!! And yes, that's an expression of joy.  I've firmly decided that without a doubt, early summer is my favorite season. I actually LIKE humidity, the sun being hot is a blessing from the heavens above, and a summer thunderstorm is just the cherry on top of a lovely day.  Yes, I'm an odd child, I like thunderstorms, tornados, hurricanes, the whole natural storms thing - natural SUMMER storms I should say. You can keep the blizzards to yourself, thank-you-very-much.

This weekend, I'm planning on cleaning the house (the dust bunnies are frantically multiplying) washing clothes (I'll have to take new pictures of the bookcases AFTER I get rid of the mounds of clothes that are scattered about the room), and finally putting together the planner for the Book Club as I volunteered to be the secretary for the club, buying a swimsuit (or at least start looking).....hmm....I think that's about it.

Umm....dang, got pulled into chatting about stuff with my other verrah bored coworkers and damn - it's only 2:30.

I wanna be out playing in the rainnnn................

And ya know, the fact that it's friday the thirteenth makes it even cooler. :)

Poem for Cest la Vie

aloneisabadword
itmeansalways
singleinaworldoftwos
itmeanssleepingsolitarywhen
everyoneisintwinbeds
itmeanscoldwhenall
othershaveasharedwarmth
itmeansalwaysoutside
lookinginandknowingthat
youhavetochangetosomething
notyoutobecomeoneofthem
andbeone
yetstillalone
becauseyouarealwaysyou
evenifyouaresomeoneelse
itmeansalwaysangryatyoubecause
youdidnothavethestrengthtostayyou
andhadtobethem
sellingouttobestrongisinitself
aweaknessbecausethereisaseparate
peaceforthosestrongandalone
andthosestronghappytogetherbutnot
themself.
ifIshouldchangeiwoulddie
ofmissingme.

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And yes, I hate typing that thing. What POSSESED me to write it like that, I'll never know, but I've always liked it that way.

Swimmingly

For some evil, evil reason, there is a scale in the big women's bathroom at work (as if we don't have ENOUGH to fret about at work - oh yeah, here, see how much you weigh every time you take a leak!!!).  Of course, unable to resist temptation, I clambered my gradually getting plumper ass on it.  Now, while I won't tell you the numbers (suffice it to say it looks like I might as well have never gotten chummy with Dr. Atkins all of three years ago) I was - stunned. Not really shocked, as I know the beast lied, and McDonalds is a curse (damn you FiletofFish - DAMN YOU!) but stunned. STUNNED I tell you. So - I climbed down (it's one of the doctor scales kind too which CLUNKS when you get off just to EMPAHSIZE the weight) and immeadiately retreated to my desk to find the closest Y that offers swimming lessons.  I LOVE the water - love it - love it - but never actually learned how to swim. For the longest time, it was simply the fact that I couldn't SEE in the water - glasses + pool = nerdly mcnerd, and contacts + pool = stupid & painful but as I've had perfect eyes (thank you Mr. Lasik!!) for the last two years, no longer any excuse.  I have no fear of water (which includes going white water rafting twice - as a NON-swimmer with contacts as well as ocean sports like riding a banana boat driven by an insane Dominican who wanted to see the american girls boobs bounce - my best friend is as well endowed as me, but slimmer in the wasit and hips) but I've just never gotten off my slowly spreading ass and learned how to swim. So - it's summer time, and a cool dip in water every few days sounds like a lovely thing.

Therefore, I go to the YMCA of Memphis page, and am presented with a plethora of options.  (ohhh, big word! and spelled right! I think......) but now - which one should I go to?

1) Fogelman YMCA - downtown, 6 minutes from my house. Classes in the evening (I think - I've emailed asking for thier adult swim schedule).  Upsides? 6 minutes from home. downsides - downtown. I shudder to think of the types of traffic drama I'd have to deal with on game nights (as it's right across from the ballpark) or really - any other kind of night in the lovely summer on Beale Street. Besides all of the lovely blond pneumatic types who might frequent it (nothing against blond women! I wanna be blond! Seriously - I'm considering bleaching my hair....but me & the hair thing is a WHOLE nother entry). Me in a bathing suit is bad enough, I don't need (okay want - seeing her might give me some MO-Ti-Vaaaaation) to see perky mcsexy doing laps next to me.

2) Mason YMCA - off of Central, 9 minutes from home. Classes from 7:30 til 8:30, Mon-Thursday, at a most reasonable rate - 85.00 (as a non-member, 55.00 for a member), for two weeks of classes, 4 days a week. Open swim for free for members Tuesday/Thursday evenings, and Saturday & sunday Mornings (I'm actually suprised a ymCa is open on Sunday - esp in the South). Downsides? Umm... 9 minutes from home (yes, that's the lazy heifer side of me peeking out) upsides - NOT downtown, but still close. Convienent times....and the classes start next month. 

Thus giving me enough time to work my way through the largest downside of a swimming class.......... purchasing a bathing suit. (Why'd I call it a bathing suit rather than a swimming suit? hmm... no clue  - Freudian slip of the type of outfit I'd purchase, most likely).  While I utterly heart Tarjay, and their bathing suits, and this is the perfect season (oooh excuses, excuses) I HATE buying them. I've got - almost giganourmus tatas (I shudder to think of the kind/size/price of nursing bras I'll have to purchase at some point in the not-at-all-close future) and a VERY short waist. Most of me is boob and leg, seriously. Sooooo.....buying a swimsuit that 1) supports the girls (there is a limit to how much they'll float) AND 2) isn't ugly - I'm such a spoiled little fashionista and 3) costs LESS than 100 bucks (why is it the items that include the LEAST fabric - swimsuits, bras, underwear - cost the damn most I'll never understand) it's a - frustrating enterprise, to say the least.

But. I've got three weeks to do it. And do it, I shall. I love the water, I won't sweat while I'm swimming (or at least I won't feel it) and it won't stress my fragile little knees and ankles - besides building lovely amounts of shapely musckules.

Besides, if I drink like a fish, I might as well be able to move like one, yes?

*yaawwwnn*

I've decided that anytime I write an entry after lunch, it's going to lean towardst he more grumpy/bored side of things.  Of course, if I wrote an entry before lunch, it would most likely also lean towards to grumpy/bored side of things.  Aren't I just a delight??

I've collected loads of pics of stuff that people want to see - though the fact that TWO of you asked to see my makeup - which i wear about a good three or four times a year - cracks me up - and what's even funnier is the amount I have for a supposedly 'don't wear makeup' person. Most of it I was talked into buying for the wedding (over a year ago) and it barely looks used - thus giving you an idea of how often I actually use it.
Also - my cats don't like the camera. I've got one good picture of G looking like the devil cat incarnate, and a couple of Nikki - but I'm going to try to get a picture of them together. I also want a picture that demonstrates G's utter HUGENESS - any suggestions of what to photograph him next to/under?

Ahhh...ice water. So good.

Hmm....meeting. bleh.

5/12/05

I realized that I don't work well without sleep. Hubby has a new job, and as we only have one car, I'm forced to work my schedule (banking hours) as well as his shift - (late night hours). While driving at night is enourmously relaxing, it also makes me sleepy as hell - which means that by the time we get home, I'm mostly incommunicative, mildy grumpy, and focused on going to BED - to sleep, not to play any hinkypinky business. I think I might have to start taking a nap when I get home from work. I can't wait til he gets a car.

A few morning's ago (or was is yesterday morning?) he woke up hard, and started jerking off in bed. I KNOW I have issues now, because my first gut reaction was 'Ew - why is he playing with that thing? Doesn't he have enough respect to keep such - such activities to himself??' then I started analyzing my reaction - one of the wonderful things about this journal - I'm more aware of my reactions - thus making them subconsious reactions yet I'm consious of it. And of course, you can't fix something you aren't aware of. I laid there for a while - actually NOT pulling away, or rolling over on my back like I usually would, and listened to him pleasing himself while I turned my reaction over in my mind. I thought about it, and about the tenseness in my body, and the almost automatic reactions of 'Ew!' instead of a more normal reaction of 'oooohhh' and - well, I didn't come to any conclusions by the time he came.

And then, to make me feel even MORE guilty (for having that reaction) he moans my name as he comes. I have an amazingly wonderful husband, who's even more amazing because he puts up with me. But I love him - dearly, deeply and truly....and I honestly think that's part of the problem sometimes. I haven't figured out how to integrate real love with raw lust. It seems - wrong somehow to have them both at once...at least in my twisted little mind.

showoff!!!

Okay, I stole this from Steel who stole it from Stealth.....

I've always wanted to do one of those, but since usually either my computer or camera was dead (or the house was in something very seriously approaching shambles) I never dared. Ask!! plleeeeasssseee??? I'm such a showoff. That's why I put it first - so everyone will see it.

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Ok, here's the deal. Ask me to take a picture of anything in my life that you might want to see, and I will do it. Ask to see my house, my town, my car, my feet, my nose, my bed, my trash can, my washer, my toilet, my cats..nothing is off limits (besides the hubby and my bareskin - I'm not THAT much of a showoff. Besides - most of ya'll have seen him!!)
As soon as I get some requests ( If I get any at all!) I will post some lovely pictures. Ask and ye shall receive.
So there it is...request away. Think of the wild, the weird, the strange or the ordinary. Just ask and I shall click.

 

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Heard back from the furniture people - only 375.00 for shipping - which is a HELL of alot less than I expected. And - I noticed that they only chared us for ONE ottoman, when we ordered two. *sshhhhh* Maybe it's a deal of some sort. *nods* Yeah, a deal. And since we requested contrasting colors on them, they KNOW we want two. So, Sweeeet. I need to fill out the info and fax this back to them TODAY. I would like to have it by the time my family comes to visit in July, but that might be cutting it close.

One of my coworkers is leaving them team, and we had a French breakfast for her this morning. There is something wonderfully decadent about walking into work, having fresh warm quiche, berry filled crossaints, and frappachinos.  Of course, I'm now going to alternate between beings tired and hyper all day - but DAMN, was it ever good.

Ah yes... I've been meaning to share this link with all the other cat-owned beings around here - it's utterly HILARIOUS and reminds me of my furry pair on a CONSTANT basis.

See - now I'm sleepily hyper. *bouncesnorebounce*

*sigh* I guess I should do some work.

Seriously - it might SOUND like I never work - but I do. It's just that I tend to get so much done so much faster than it's expected - I have to procrastinate in order to have SOMETHING to do everyday. Now, if I could just take Wednesday-Sunday off, I would NEVER be on OD. Hmm.......

Ah yes. I'm going to get the iPod. No doubt. Will wait till C get's his first check, but the iPod shall be MINE *muauauauahahhhhaaaa* I also need to check and be sure that he doesn't still plan on getting me the shuffle. I have advanced in my greed and want the full model now, dammit. Now - something else that totally rocks - as I was QUITE traumatized to find out that only the MINI's come in colors - and me? carrying an all white iPod? Uh-uh. Goes against all my fashion sense it does - the place here -  makes SKINS for iPods. Skins!! Sexy ones too - artsy and shtuff.  Oooohhh.....puuuuurrrty.